Venomous

2007-09-10T17:27:00.000Z

GOODBYE TO BLOGGER

Hi guys,

This is just a little note to say that i am not going to be leaving blog world all together just getting away from blogger.

I would like to say thanks to everyone that has commented on here and would encourage you all not to forget me as you can still catch my antics on Wordpress under a different name.
It was a long agonising decision between sticking here, vox or Wordpress and i know it sounds girly but Wordpress is Pretty!

This blog has seen the best and worst of me and i will keep that up with my new address!
It is kind of like moving home - very sad and emotional as you are leaving memories behind!
My 21st Birthday i think has been the biggest celebration i have had on here even though there were no photos - i am trying to remedy this as i didn't have a camera at the time but several others did!

Even though i haven't seen a post from Mr Venom in a hot minute i would like to say thanks to him and Slish for making me read and post as those were the first two blogs i ever read and of course Rob Mack who has VANISHED!

Right well - this is it.
My new address: onlyyoungonce.wordpress.com

Love to all and keep reading at my forwarding address

xXxXx

2007-09-06T12:00:00.000Z

SAVING MY RELATIONSHIP

A relationship with yourself i have been told is one of the most important around - i am inclined to agree with this statement.
My reason for this is simple - if you are not happy with you self whether it be your inner or outer self then you are not going to be happy with anyone else who tries their hardest to be with you.

At this present moment in time i am feeling this. I don't as most people say 'hate myself' - but i am not exactly loving myself and my surroundings really are not helping this situation to progress into something positive.

The other day my new baby (my car) was broken into and my glove box was ripped open and my portable sat nav stolen - unfortunately it wasn't my sat nav it was my dad's which i borrowed as i can't currently afford one.

What i don't understand is that i had locked the car and checked the doors so how the hell did this person get in - it makes me more angry than scared or hurt because someone has invaded my personal space - the one big thing that i own and am working hard for to pay and someone has disrespected that by breaking in.

When i got home that night i broke the bad news to my parents at around midnight and they hit the roof - funnily enough the first question wasn't are you ok? or are you hurt? - the first question was 'When am i going to get the tom tom back - you know you have to replace it right?'

If i was a violent person then i would have hurt them so badly but they are no1 - my parents and no2 - i wouldn't do that to anyone unless my life was in immediate danger.

Luckily my car only suffered a broken glove box lock and the rest of the car is ok and i am ok as i only found out it was stolen when i got in to go home.

My conclusion on the situation was it was a crackhead looking for a quick fix and my alarm is faulty so i am going to get that checked out. Luckily no-one was hurt.

My parents conclusion was that i had left my keys lying around even though they were in my trouser pockets the whole night except when they were in the ignition and the other conclusion my mum came to was that i must have given the tom tom to someone.

My question to her last LUDICROUS suggestion is - Why the hell would i want to give something away that i know i would have to buy back if i didn't bring it back - am i that stupid or do i have money to burn?
No is the answer to both of those.

I am just so aggravated as i cannot figure out how this happened - i am sooooo careful with who i let around my car let alone leaving it in an area that i am visiting - i always make sure the doors are locked because of my line of work people are always hatin'.

ON THE ROAD TO RECOVERY

Am i really? - I am not entirely sure about that.

Series of events so far:
-Car broken into
-Quit job at hospital
-Enrolled into college
-Other half house completion gone through but mother still very much a pain in the ass

So let us look over my series of events that have happened in the past couple of days
Oh and don't let me forget i went to visit another friend and even though i bought a ticket and it was displayed clearly on my dashboard some bastard traffic warden gave me a ticket for not displaying a ticket - what an asswipe!

On the upside i am trying my hardest to see as much as i can in a positive light!

Positive side of things:
My car was not totally stolen or even totalled or scratched come to think of it!
I am happy that i have quit my job at the hospital as they were the biggest pack of assholes i have EVER worked with and i have no intention of going back.
By quiting the job at the hospital not only do i save around £300 a month on petrol but i can walk or cycle to college and keep fit as it is only round the corner from my house - and i can actually GO to college and do my door work at the same time.
Not really sure what can be said on a positive note for the house and the other halfs mother.

I have been thinking seriously about our relationship lately and i have been having serious doubts but don't know how to express them to him as i don't want him to run a mile but in a way i wished at one point that he would - but then when i go back and think about it i want to be around him, i want to share my life with him and have a family.
It is all just so confusing - i suppose it is a lot more difficult now that he is not here to reassure me that things will be ok - he is away at sea and i can only speak to him when and where he gets reception which he doesn't even know until he gets there.

Well i think i will make that a rap for now and let your little eyes rest!

Take care of yourselves and thanks for stopping by - i will definitely be back sooner rather than later as i should hopefully have a lot less stress and some more free time on my hands!

xXxS*BxXx

2007-08-24T11:04:00.000Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

So i am guessing that you have figured out it is my birthday - still in the same rut as last year - everyone is busy and there is nowhere to go.
Despite my birthday falling on the carnival weekend and me telling people that it was birthday like a MONTH ago - they made plans about 3 months back.

So in the spirit of Fuck it Friday's from Freaky's page - i am a bit fucked off as i want to go out and celebrate with my friends who aren't busy tonight but my family have already booked a table at a restaurant as a surprise that i found out because my dad's mouth is not like a ducks ass more like a hoes pussy - loose!

Fuck the people that have said that they will be able to make it to my 21st and cancelled at the last minute.

And generally just fuck, fuck, fuckity, fuck, fuck, fuck - are you getting the vibe that i am pissed off!

Also i am pissed off for more than the reason above - birthdays have always been a big thing to me - especially my 21st - i woke up this morning and got a load of abuse from a friend that is trying to sort out a surprise party for me but let loose that it is happening as she asked me who was turning up - needless to say she got the wrong end of the dialling tone from my cell.
And then she had the cheek to text me - Oh yeh Happy Birthday - when i see her she will either get a cheap drink over her or knocked the FUCK out!
Then the other half rolled over and said "Happy B-day boo" not even Birthday you know B-day and he is still asleep - it is 12:12 on the 24/08/07 - i am 21 and i am watching my other half sleep.

FUCK THIS I AM GOING TO GET MY EYEBROWS DONE AND GO TO MY MOM'S HOUSE - i haven't got enough money for shopping because i am paying for my new car - so FUCK THAT TOO!!!!!

Hope everyone enjoys the day - i am sure i will later when i am slightly drunk!!!!!

Peace and love peoples!

The one and only

xXxS*BxXx

2007-07-23T13:52:00.000Z

It's the final countdown!!!!

My last week at my current job and i am excited yet a little sad.

I can't believe things are finally changing for the better.

Well not all for the better - i have had a recent good luck streak which seems to have been followed by a bad luck streak in turn - not good.

Venting time:

I went home Thursday last week to find a red letter sitting on my desk - considering i have paid all my bills well all but one credit card as i needed petrol for the past month and had no money - but that will be paid in the next couple months.

Back to the red letter - the phone company 3g claim that i owe them £444.91 - which is the biggest crock of shit i have ever seen in black and red in my life!

I HAD ("Had" being the operative word) a contract phone with them before but cut it off and paid £382 and some change upfront to some debt collector people but they obviously didn't send my money to the company - therefore they should be chasing them not me.

I have my bank statement from then aswell so i can prove my payment.

The biggest joke of all is the date of this alleged non-payment - September 2005 - 2 whole piggin years ago - what a BIATCH - I mean surely if i really was in debt then they should be sending my all the warnings they can type out under the sun but when i asked the guy on the end of the phone which i am sure was in a foreign country - one that i wont name as i don't want to be seen as a racist - he told me that the last correspondence that they sent to me was in 2005.

If there are any lawyers out there that think this stinking crock is a big pile of crap like i do please let me know! - It would be much appreciated.

I am going to see my solicitor today and get them to send a letter to this company as i had another letter or saturday from them telling me they were going to consider sending bailiffs round - For something i don't owe? - My answer to that was come round and the police will be following shortly after you.

This post was written a few weeks ago so not sure why it didn't get posted!

xXx

2007-07-19T11:35:00.000Z

Giving up on blogger????

I have really had enough of the dry outlook of blogger and i ready to give it up and move to another place but where to i wonder?

I have heard and seen that wordpress is pretty good, then i saw on the grapevine!! - that vox is wicked as you can easily link with You Tube

People i need some feedback as obviously it has to be easily accessible for you lovelies!!!

Oh a quick peeve of mine - why have so many people made their blogs private?

It's getting annoying now :(

Well hope to get some news from y'all real soon

xXx

2007-07-18T13:01:00.000Z

Kissing in the rain . . .

Such a cliche but feels great!
On sunday there was terrible rain where i live and i was hibernating inside with my dog (who seems to be growing at warp speed!)
The other half came over (we sorted things out - yay!) and we were just jammin watching some tv and listening to music (not at the same time - how do people do that?!!)

He decided it would be a good idea to let the dog play outside - even though it was raining apparently he should get used to it - yeh right! - He don't know my stubborn ass pup!!
So he let him out in the pouring rain and funnily enough he didn't want to come back in - he would on the condition that i went out and got him.
My argument to the other half in this situation is he has spare clothes in my wardrobe and has no hair that could get ruined - instead he ignored me and dragged me by the hand into the rain.

It smelt so nice - i know that sounds really odd but it is so true.
And i know this is going to sound so cheesy but hey - i have never been kissed in the rain before so i guess there is a first time for everything and i LOVED it - even though i have to now go and get my hair relaxed as it was passable before!!!
He looked good all wet aswell!!!

Other than my cliche setting i had a pretty good weekend. I got put at a different venue from my usual on friday and went back on saturday as the manager asked my manager for me to go back.
We had such a great laugh - going to be there this weekend again and finish at 1am and go back to the other place til 3am to get the extra £$£$£$.

Well i know it is short and sweet but i really don't have that much to say! - Just thought i would share my weekend romance with you!

How was your weekend?

xXxS*BxXx

2007-07-11T14:40:00.000Z

Dirty Weekend!!! - PART DEUX!!!

What really happened!!!

So we went to the coast on Saturday afternoon (supposed to have gone in the morning!) and as we had reserved the hotel the night before we had a little direction to where we were going to sleep.
Before we left we stopped at the petrol (gas) station and got the necessaries and some food and drink for the journey.
He got fruit and nuts and I got chicken pasta salad.

So the journey took just over an hour and it was the best feeling ever. Getting away from the real world and all the problems that even though we had to come back 1 night away was like a detox!

We got there at around 3 in the afternoon and checked our bags and then got washed and dressed for dinner – it was only Pizza Hut but it was just US!
I was so excited about finally getting some proper food!

So we waited for about 10 minutes in the long queue for a table – can you believe it in Pizza Hut the biggest pizza dive around and there is a queue they must be doing something right!
We were seated by an extremely polite waiter and he took our drink orders – both on softies as he doesn’t drink I didn’t want to be wankered before the food got there!

So we ordered the food pronto as there was a queue for ordering as well – only 3 staff and about 40 people – MAYHEM!!!
I had a couple sips of my tango but not too much as fizzy drinks fill me up if I am eating!

But then I started feeling all queezy and light-headed. Not a good feeling when you are awaiting a HOT LARGE STUFFED CRUST pizza L - I think many can share my misery!

I had to make a mad dash for the toilet and my head went first – if you know what I mean. That s**t was projectile!
Not good – nicht git! –

So I was in there for the best part of ½ hour and not happy as I was thinking of him devouring my pizza – we had to order 2 large ones as he can easily eat 1 and ¾ on his own! – I was crying everywhere so my mascara was all down my face and my hair was all over the place.

When I finally pulled myself together and my head out of the toilet I felt a sharp stabbing pain in my stomach towards my ass and couldn’t move – my legs gave way and I was on the toilet floor.

I had no reception on my cell phone and had to wait for him to come in and get me out of the toilet and back to the hotel room – I passed out twice and ended up waking up all clammy on the hotel bed. It was quite possibly the worst experience all year.

We were looking forward to it so much to see if we could reconcile our differences and all it did was made sleeping dogs lie as the saying goes.
Every time we tried to talk I would dip in and out of consciousness.

I woke up the next morning and put my brave legs on and headed for the bathroom – I managed a shower in pain still round my ass and managed to I know this sounds sick but take a s**t!!!
It felt so good. For the rest of the day I could have inflated a hot air balloon!!

He drove me home and we barely spoke as I was asleep and when I got home I was too tired to discuss.

Who knows – So much for a dirty weekend.

It took me until today – Wednesday to write this as I have been sick as s**t and working like a dog on some paperwork to finish things before I leave.

So what did y’all get up to this weekend just gone? I hope better events than mine were in the making!!!

Peace

xXxS*BxXx

2007-07-05T09:10:00.001Z

DIRTY WEEKEND!

I know two posts in one day but to be honest the other one took me so long and wasn't finished as i got too frustrated!

So let me tell y'all bout what i have planned!!!

Even though things are severly on the rocks with me and the other half he has told me to book a weekend away.

So i am on the look out - nothing seedy but classy and cheap!!!

I will let you know how i get on and will post some pics of rooms etc if i find anything and hopefully be able to get some pics of us together!!!

OH BIG NEWS!!!

I went for my interview for the maternity assistant post and got the job! - I am so stoked!

xXx

2007-07-02T07:33:00.000Z

Country Antics!

Never have i had a post that pissed me off so much i couldn't even finish it!!!

So i headed to the coast this weekend to pay a my aunt a visit in my new car the other half tagged along (a bit to my displeasure!). He came in his car so all was cool on the western front.

I got to test drive my new baby on some of the most horrible terrains in the rain and shine!! (Wow it sounds like a movie!)

I was set for the journey with music and food with tasty drink! (Non- Alc! - Obviously - DO NOT DRINK AND DRIVE (I had to get that in somewhere!!!))

So i finished work at 1pm on Friday and went home to get ready for my big adventure.

I was under the impression that he didn't want to come with me but he called at the last minute and asked me to wait so i did (which i am beginning to regret!) - I had planned to be down by the coast while the sun was still shining (what was left of it before another miserable weekend of rain following the week i have just had) - but no i got there at 9pm thanks to himself as he claimed not to know the way but overtook me twice and fecked off!

So needless to say - tired and PEEVED.

It is now wednesday and i am still trying to complete this post - every chance that i have had over the past couple of days the phone has either rang or some a-hole has dumped a load of paperwork on my desk!

So i am back and hopefully gonna finish.

Ok so where was i . . . .

I finally got to the coast and the weather was miserable absolutely ridiculously disgusting!

However as usual my auntie was as warming as ever - it seems no matter what older people always have a cheery disposition!

We got there late evening so i wasn't expecting sun but it would have been nice if it was even mild. So 9:30pm and all i wanted to do was reconcile my differences with himself and curl up in bed etc!!!

But no that didn't happen - my auntie went to bed as did i and then he rolled in about 2 hours later.

Bearing in mind that i was up until 11pm playing my nintendo ds lite and then went to bed that would make it about 1am that he crawled in!

The next day started off a bit weird as i am usual up and out of bed before 10 but i was bearly in the shower by 11 which was a bit disappointing - but the weather wasn't up to much so not too bad!

We sat in bed for about 1 hour playing DS and talking in between - felt really awkward which is a first as we are usually so comfortable with each other in bed - with or without clothes!!!

Arrrrrgggggggghhhhh - this post is taking too long i know it is an abrupt ending but i gotta get outta here!

Will be back soon.

xXxXx

2007-06-27T14:27:00.000Z

SUCCESS!!!

People i have finally done it!

I have finally got my car - i am collecting after i take the dog to the vet for his jabs and drop him home.

I love it so much.

I have managed to bleach out the number plate so you can see my new baby in all of its glory - isn't he gorgeous! - I need to think of a name for him!

I hope you are happy for me peoples!!!!

I am ecstatic - i am heading to the coast just me and my music to stay with my auntie for a couple days and take her out in it.

She is over 80 but loves the car as much as she loves me - it is a surprise for her as she doesn't know i got it yet!!!

Well will catch up with you all sooner rather than later and my apologies to everyone for not reading or posting.

xXx

2007-06-25T08:01:00.000Z

MONDAY MORNING BLUES

So as most people dread Monday morning is finally here.
Even though i worked over the weekend it was mostly fabulous!

However the events of the weekend before creep over me - the weekend before the one that has just gone i was called by my colleague.
She was pissed out of her head and she decided she wanted to ring me and take things out on me.
I did not appreciate this but nevertheless got on with things as i really could not be assed to bring things up.
She told me certain things that i didn't want to know about her personal life and then went on to tell me not to tell my other colleague. The one telling me all of this is the new girl.

I am now in two minds whether to say something or not as this is her first day back from holiday.

Second thoughts i am going to say something i will let you know how i get on!

xXx

2007-06-19T12:41:00.000Z

Not so bad after all. . .

Monday morning was not as daunting as i thought it would be.

Let me go over how terrible my weekend turned out to be!

So Friday was a pretty shit day on the work side of things as the new lady has turned out to be a bigger pain in the ass than all the rest of them!

She constantly gets things wrong and when you advise her on how to correct things she thinks you are having a go at her. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Annoying!

So we (me and my colleague that i have worked through all the temps with!) decided to have a little chat except i chose to be excluded as they have known each other for a lot longer.

Turns out the new one jumped down my colleagues throat which pissed her and me off!

So we are not happy bunnies.

The conversation ended with my colleague asking her if she was ok and things were ok and he reply was "Yes, everything is fine!"

On Friday evening i went to collect the rest of my wages from the nightclub and was planning on staying there to jam for a while, however i got a phone call.

Now here is me thinking that it might be from himself or even my mum at least!

But no it was from the new one at work - she was PISSED beyond belief and started having a go at me about how myself and my colleague have made her feel like shit all week as we have been picking on her about not doing the job right!

This is a 50 or more year old woman people and she is bitchin like she is about 5 - maybe its the menopause but my colleague is going through that and yeah she is a bit of a pain but she is still cool as cool can be!

I figured out that she called me and not my colleague as i am too nice to tell her to FUCK HERSELF KINDLY!

Whereas my colleague is not!!!
She said some really horrible things which really fucked me off but i didn't want to ring my colleague to tell her as i am not a selfish enough person to spoil someone elses weekend.

So needless to say i needed cheering up so the boyfriend took me to see Fantastic 4 - it was great! - Cinema was packed out and half way through the movie someones cellphone started ringing *Attitude Gyal* - i wanted to bruk out doing Dutty Wine!!!!
I restrained myself - which is a bit of a shame for the members of public i think they would have enjoyed me making an ass of myself!

So the film was great and i was on a HIGH! until i went outside.
I went to my car and about 10 feet away the b/f says to me - "Oh here we go" - I was like "WTF?"
Then i see it a big yellow parking ticket slapped on my windshield by some C*** I dont like that word but hey!.
There are no hours displayed on the road to say that i cannot park and i was not on the double yellow line.
That bastard just wanted to meet his quota for the end of the day or week considering there was a car directly ahead of me across the double yellow line and the time was 10:59pm - how ridiculous have these peoples not got homes to go to or girlfriends to get jiggy with!!!
It really riled me up and then the anger of the phone call got to me.
I tossed and turned that night and the night after until Monday came and i let it all out.

Monday Morning
There were no tears just pure anger - my colleague is in shared anger with me and may the lord help the new one when she gets back on Monday morning.
It'll be like smack down.

Today
As it is Tuesday now and nearly time to go home i must say after both of us venting our anger we feel much better - we also have chocolate and i have some great news!

If any of you remember that i applied for the midwifery assistant post well i spoke to the assistant director of the Midwifery side of things and i asked her if she had any idea if i had got the job and she said "Yes that i am a certain on her list"
So i am happy for now!
I have written a letter to contest my parking ticket and i should be getting in contact with trading standards about the a-holes that sold me my dog who has very bad leg problems and promised he was absolutely fine.

Well for now i am going to sign off and leave you to enjoy the afternoon.

Thanks for stopping by

As always

xXxS*BxXx

2007-06-06T21:01:00.000Z

I SMELL MONEY

Sorry for any typos in advance!

So i spent the past weekend in the Shires (Kinda like the Hamptons for the US) - as soon as we got into the town i knew we were in the Countryside!

The cars, the houses, the tar on the roads!

Another formal function with shoes and a dress to match (sort of!) - i was surrounded by money this time - you could smell it leaking out of their pockets. Then as always there was one crowd of women that were the wannabees.
I don't mind socializing with rich people as i can totally get where they are coming from - i mean it must be hard thinking of so many things that you could do with sooooo much money!!!

BUT i draw the line at wannabee's they really F*** me off - Sorry! - They were talking about their odd bikini wax here and there and how acupuncture is definitely a must!
I rolled my eyes and sidled over to the bar where i was then told that not only was the room paid for but all my drinks etc - EVERYTHING!
I had a couple of Martini's with Lemonade and then went up to get ready for the evening ahead which i was now definite that i would make the most of drink wise. All i had to do was sign for my drinks and whatever and it would be taken care of - how cool!

So let's take things upto the bedroom - himself was already in with shoes kicked off and feet up watching TV (Sports!)
Me being me had to scope this place out - I walked around slowly surveying the wardrobes and the decor along with the flat screen TV that he was watching, the side tables and then the what should be called dining table which a couple could sit and have breakfast in their room.
This table was covered neatly with a tray full of 4 Crystal glasses - 2 of which Wine glasses and the other for water.
2 Glass bottles of expensive looking water - 1 Sparkling and the other Still just waiting to be opened but whispering to me "look behind me". An ice bucket was seductively placed behind the water and crystals with a pair of tongue for a ladylike pick up ice that would go in the bucket.
The bucket then whispered "Over there, look over there" - i followed my nose which then lead me to the solution as to why there were two wine glasses - MINIBAR! - 2 bottles of chilled wine 1 Red and the other White with 4 Cokes 2 Orange Juices 2 Bottles of Chilled Water same as the table ones and a couple bottles of bud.
The expression on my face showed " Nice!" - The phone rang *RING* (Sound effects!!!!)
"Ms Bite, This is reception, Mr S***** has requested us to tell you and your partner that you may order room service and have full service of the mini bar and he will settle your bill when necessary at the end of your stay"
I replied "Well thank you very much, tell him we send our KINDEST regards and will see him for dinner at 7"

Sounds so posh doesn't it!!!!

So we had a bottle of water each and himself who doesn't drink had a Coke whilst i showered and got ready for dinner.

I was dressed and ready for action all that i was waiting for was my man to sort his uniform out and we were good to go!

We looked good!

All the ladies were swooning over him and his uniform - i rolled my eyes once again and sidled over to the bar - Double Martini and Lemonade and under the instruction of Mr S***** i charged it to the room.
Then there he was Mr S***** - my uncle. Such a quiet yet cool guy.
Hard not to love him. He had things to do so he bid us a great night and disappeared. Kinda like Spidey - does his good deed then he is off!!!

We were seated for dinner and got talking to a couple of Americans about mobile phones - they told us they could live without theirs and i gladly obliged to take them off their hands!!! - They joked with us and i wasn't joking!!!!!

So the night then moved onto a very drunken raffle for most of the room - in my stupor it was a bit of a bitch that i won the only present on the list that i really didn't want but because each single ticket was £1 and the prizes numbered you were stuck with what you got.
My Prize - A bottle of Brandy - why me? - I don't even drink Brandy i loathe the stuff so in an attempt of goodwill without thinking of what encouragement i was giving i gave the bottle to my dad.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY! - I'm joking this time - HONESTLY!!!

After the raffle i was juiced enough for a month let alone the night! - So we headed outside for a little stroll until my feet started SEVERELY hurting - they were hurting at the beginning but this was off or bust!!!
So he took me to bed! - In every sense of the word! - I get weird when drunk so i most definitely will not be divulging any info about what happened afterwards - let's just say i woke up late - VERY late the next day!

Only in the morning of us leaving did i notice one of the best things in the room - no people not the soap - the BATHROBES - after sleeping on White Cotton sheets i was wrapped in a fluffy white towel after my shower then in a big white fluffy Bathrobe - Oh i wanted it for keeps but then i noticed a little note on both of them.
I can't remember the exact message (Note to self: take pictures next time!)
It went something like this:
To our dear Enthusiastic customer, as much as we can understand that you may have fallen in love with this luscious piece of drying equipment we must remind you that it has been used by many of our caring guests like yourself (it is washed!) but we urge you to leave it for someone else to receive the love you have from this wonderful product - however for just a few of your little pound coins you can purchase your very own from main reception ext ****.

Ok my initial reaction was eeeewwwww - someone else has been all coochied up in this bathrobe - YIK! - then i went onto thinking you are charging how much for rooms and you are being so stingy of these luscious (as they put it) products.
I would be saving you the hassle of washing it again - then i thought - ah well Primark must have one similar for about £10 nevertheless a bit disheartened!!!

So we got dressed packed, thanked the Uncle and then headed home.

All in all a DAMN FINE weekend as the weather was cool as!!

Hope you enjoyed it as much as i did.

Note to TTD - I didn't take the robe anyway! - HONEST!
My uncle would have been charged if i did :(

Well i'm offskies from work for the day so later lovelies!

xXx

2007-06-01T10:12:00.000Z

LUDICROUS BEHAVIOUR

Ludicrous: –adjective
causing laughter because of absurdity; provoking or deserving derision; ridiculous; laughable: a ludicrous lack of efficiency.

My workplace has officially banned MySpace including all of the clever loopholes that i found - it is RIDICULOUS.
People keep telling me to wait until i get home but i really don't have the time to sit on it at home - i have free time at work at which i do nothing so i go on there.
Not a good thing to say on blogger as one would have thought i would be on here but if you have nothing to say then say nothing right?

Anyway moving on!!!!!

I do actually have something to say well a couple of things!

Firstly - i went for dinner at such a cool place last week - it used to be a usual haunt for me and the person i went with but as we lost touch we stopped going there.

Our usual joint menu mostly consisted of BBQ Chicken and Cheese Nachos - the place is called El Chicos!!!
Your table candle is strategically placed in a used Tequila bottle whilst the table clothes are wipe clean and the menus are as old as me!!!
However the service is fabulous and the price is cheap so thumbs up from me!

So let me track back:

Myself and my good friend who will be known as P considering my imagination at this point of Friday afternoon lacks many things!
We used to be there at least every two weeks - the Nachos were FANTASTIC guacamole and everything.
I am sad to say that the tradition of these sauces were not kept up but the Nachos are still out of this world!

Moving onto my next subject which is funnily enough my first subject - MYSPACE
Why have they banned it? - Well this is the reason i got from the Networks Manager

[Snake]
Sites like this are being blocked as a general rule and the Internet should only be used for official Trust business as per our Internet usage policy. If you can offer a business justification as to why you need access to this site please forward this request to Stu Powers.
thanks
[Network Boss]

My reply for this email has not yet been written as i have no idea what i can say - therefore i am trying to get my hands on the Usage Policy which is nowhere to be seen so i can find a loophole.

People if you have ANY suggestions on what i can say back to this patronising a**hole then please let me know as i will include your comments in my reply if not too rude!!!! - I thought networking would be a good one but i am in the admin dept so who am i networking with?!!!

Bit of a short one but if i think of anything else i will edit - my hands are tired now so must go.

xXx

2007-05-24T11:51:00.001Z

HELP IS NEEDED. . .

This story really deeply hurts me to know that someone could even contemplate such a terrible thing as to take young child.

I am only assuming that everyone knows about the case of the little girl Madeleine McCann being abducted from the resort Praia De Luz, Portugal.

Personally i really do not think this whole situation adds up.

When i say that i mean that there are plenty of little children that go missing everyday and YES the general public shows an interest in them but not this much.

I can fully understand that it is a partly foreign affair, however why was there not so much attention paid to the
Ben Needham case?

When this whole situation first happened - my main question is: Why was this little child left on her own in the first place?
Some may say - she wasn't on her own she had her brother and sister with her.

As it has been said in many articles about the Portugese and their children, they do not leave their children alone whilst out, they take them with them.

People i am truly puzzled as to why this didn't happen.

This little girl is a true gem just look at her little face - why would you take such a big risk with such a precious thing so close to ones heart?

I sincerely hope that this little sweetheart is returned safely to her parents ASAP. And whoever has done this is very sorry for their actions and fully aware that they should be prepared to face the consequences for such a terrible action.

Green is the sign of hope in Portugal
Yellow is the sign of a missing person in the UK

xXxXx

2007-05-17T11:00:00.000Z

CHANGES

Edit note: I got my pic with my colleagues in the hospital newspaper!!!

Left to Right: Me!!!!, The New Girl (The nice one!), Loz - Estates girls!

I think i look so shitty in this but hey each unto their own!!

So as you can see i have made a major change to the way my post used to look - partly because the black was doing my eyes in but also because it is much more relaxing looking at a nice holiday scene!
I have been toying with the idea of changing my template for a while and tried various different ones with the preview button really didn't think i would be OK with deleting the old me!

Well people i am still the same with the same psycho babble coming out of the keyboard on most days but just a different background!
In reality - can we be the same with a different background or does it change our whole persona?
I honestly don't think this is the case - i think we are the masters of ourselves and therefore only we can change if we so choose!

Speaking of changes!!!

Things have been kicking off at home - not a good thing as they only got back from holiday 2 days ago and before i could even step foot into hell he kicked off.
My natural reaction is to shout back so i did for all of 5 minutes and got tired of putting up an impossible and more to the point POINTLESS defense - my other reaction "Fuck this" and walk away so that is what i did - i jumped in my car and went to the petrol(gas!) station and drove up to the future mother in laws for some food and peace!
We have been getting along really well lately which is one of the biggest changes and it is actually really nice!

I lost my train of thought for a little while there as i went to lunch and came back and everything went blank!

Still a bit hazy but will try and recoup!!

So his mum. . .

We talked for almost over 3 hours about our families and the BIG differences.

I never thought i would say this anytime soon but i really can't wait to be an official part of their family. There is so much love - on the level that i love them and they love me.

I would do anything for his little sister and that is weird as i am an only child and have never had family this close!

She tells everyone at school that i am her big sister - makes me blush and sometimes shed a little tear!

See people family and love and stuff bring out the soft side of SB - i am pretty sure it is a good thing!!!

OK moving away from the problems and moving onto plans etc. . .

Got a letter through the post when i got home yesterday - i have an Interview on Tues 22nd for college entry to a 1 year course for Health Studies.

Now this is only my absolute back up plan in case the Midwifery Assistant post goes totally tits up which i am hoping it doesn't. Fingers xxxxx everyone!!!

Told my boss i need to leave early for the interview and he was surprisingly supportive!

The instructor from the Jujitsu class emailed me back with all the details of how to get there and dates of classes and prices - which are all pretty reasonable!

The next class is on Tues 22nd but depending on time i don't think i will be able to make it back to Central London on time from Surrey! MADNESS i am hot to trot on this subject as i really am getting sick of being floored by the other doorman!

Well it is all go go go for me and now i must GO!!!!

So peace out y'all and holla!

Oh side note: I had layered Jelly (Jello i think to the peoples in the US) it taste GOOOOOD!!!

xXx

2007-05-15T11:07:00.000Z

BACK TO WORK

Listening to: Justin Timberlake - What goes around

So tomorrow back to work after many needed days off.
Over the past couple of days i can safely say i have done pretty much absolutely nothing.
I have been feeling very lathargic - not a good thing.
I think work will kick me back into touch.
On the subject of me listening to JT - Not a frequent thing but i was watching ugly betty and fell in love with the song - this is not a justification of taste as i think he has a great voice but is a bit of a woos!

I heard earlier this week my cousin in the US went into emergency surgery - for reasons that i will not say i was petrified for her and was absolutely powerless apart from sending love via emails.
It has always been said that you can't choose your family over in the UK i would totally agree with this statement but with my family in the states i could not pick a better bunch.
My heart split when i heard this had happened but was thankful that she pulled through and is now in recovery with her baby boy telling his mommy that he loves her every minute he can.

I recently posted that this would be the month that i would hand in my notice in my Full Time job - well things have been backdated slightly for financial reasons - the main one being i CANT afford it and won't struggle for the sake of a little bit of pride.
I still haven't told my colleagues what i am thinking and it is going to remain that way until i have written signed and handed in my notice.
I am not planning on taking anymore holidays before i hand in my notice as i would like to save them to either get the money or get out early and potentially earn money from the other job!
Sneaky sneaky maybe but a girls gotta live and shop!
So my new plan - my backdated plan - Hand in my notice at the end of June and hope for the best.

Bulletin on the Midwifery front:
I got a letter through the door the other day telling me to turn up for a literacy and numeracy test on Fri 11th - which i attended to determine whether i would be put through for an interview for the post.
I chose to do the Literacy first - as it was done in two parts you got your results as soon as you finished a unit.
The scores work out as L1 and L2 - You needed an L2 in Literacy and L1 in Numeracy - i think that is the right way round!
So i did the Literacy like i said and told the woman i was done and asked for my results - she told me that i might need classes - which really disheartened me (there is a twist!)
So i soldiered through the Numeracy disheartened but still going strong.
When i had finished i breathed a sigh of relief from finishing the whole thing - I EXTREMELY dislike exams!
I went to the woman to get my results - she apologized . . .
. . .
. . .

For her mistake on the first part - I PASSED both sections with an L2!!!!!

Told you there was a twist!
So you proud?

As for tomorrow - first day back - things are drastically going to change at home and at work.
I need something more interesting in my life - i am going to look into martial arts classes!!!
Considering one of the other bouncers floored me!! (Which i quite enjoyed!!!)

xXxS*BxXx

2007-05-08T22:40:00.000Z

1 Post 1 Bottle

My last post was my 50th, however it didn't feel special so i guess it will be the 100th that should be something big!!!

So people i had my weekend away and i am slowly adjusting back to real life - i got called into work last night but only stayed a couple of hours as not many people turned up for the night!
I was ballin over laughing!

So back to the title - 1 Bottle being the most dominating part of the title!
I was sitting watching my TV and made my way through a whole bottle of Rose - it's good shyt!

I invited an old friend over for dinner for tonight - so we had the dinner and then he was sent packing!
He was trying to cop off but it really wasn't happening - with me or with my loving companion who protects me whilst the other half is away - this loving companion being my puppy!
Everytime he tried to even hug me my pup got in between and not to be rude but thank the lord he was there - i honestly only wanted him over here for dinner - HONESTLY!
I even cooked - yes it was only filled pasta and cheap but it was dinner for someone who was already making their way through a bottle!

I apologize ahead of times for this post if none of it makes sense as.

Back to the messed up post!

Another subject that i would like to bring up is - how can teenagers be like 20 or 30 somethings and it cannot be the other way around?
I have seen so many young girls becoming mummies or even dressing and acting like they are older - the one thing that really gets me is when i go shopping and pick up a bottle of wine i get asked for ID and they don't? What is that about - or even if i go to clubs.

MADNESS!!!

As i can't really think about much else to say in my drunken stupor i think i will leave you lovelies to tell me what you think about the situations above!

xXx

2007-05-01T13:18:00.001Z

Weekender Bender

This is not so as i spent most of my weekend working.
This is the low down:

Friday night:
Go home from the 9-5 catch some z's from about 7-8 then head out to the club to start work from 9:30ish.
Only to find out that my boss got the sack - but as i am the only female i get to stay and sign a new contract with the new peoples that are taking over!
Needless to say i was over haps!
Friday night in the club was quiet as hell so just walked round and chilled on VIP.

Saturday:
Woke up around mid-day and surfed the net for a bit whilst catching up with some fam in the US over messenger.
Around 3:30pm got a call from the other half who had also been asleep most of the day - he wanted to hit the coast to sit on the beach so he dropped by mine and picked me up.
I drove there cos he was feelin lazy as ****.
We chilled there for bout 2 hours then had to head back as i had to catch some food and z's before work at 10pm.
He drove back and i slept but when we hit london he stopped by Krispy Kreme that was my dinner!
Dropped by mine so i could shower, change for work and pick up my car for work.
Got to work early for once and they had a sniffer dog who was soooooo cute! - He was the big version of my baby Little H who has now transformed into Big H. There will be pictures of him on another post once i can get a cable to transfer my photos!
So back to work - the dog was all up on me which i was not at all please about as i aint got no drugs.
Did get playtime with him later that night though everyone was like "awwww he is soooooo cute!"
Again back to work - it was packed out that night as there was some special event for one of Londons biggest radio stations and we had to stay after for a meeting about pay which i happily obliged to as we got free chicken and chips with a drink (at 4am) and a thick pack of cash for my work over the past couple of weeks.

Sunday: Rest and eat day!

All in all quite a peaceful yet productive weekend - even though ones lady troubles appeared i battled through.

How was ur weekend people???

xXxXx

I edited this bit so i could add what is below let me know what you think!

2007-04-27T15:16:00.000Z

A Bad Friday . . .

Is it humanly possible to have a bad Friday - well YES people it really is!

Mine started at 6:45am when i got up to walk the dog.
Do you ever get the feeling when you wake up in the morning what kind of day you are going to have. I think it is like a sixth sense with me, as soon as i open my eyes i can tell what kind of day i am going to have whether it be a good or crap one.

So my eyes sprung open in answer to my alarm to walk the dog, stayed in the park for about 45 minutes and got home around 7:30. My dad said since my car was in for service that he would give me a lift to work (we work in the same place) however it seemed that he couldn't wait for 5 minutes by this time it was 7:55am.

Phase Back . . .

Last night: Came in from walking the dog at about 6:30pm and the dog did a stink bomb in the lounge - dad wasn't too happy and decided to throw a cushion at the dog (i was ready to call the RSPCA for hurting my baby!), so i questioned him as to why he did this.
My question: Your shit stinks so why you acting like it smells of roses???
His reply: You want to start an argument lets have one then . . .
My response to his childish disposition: I don't know who bit you up the ass today at work but don't take it out on me.

Phase back to this morning!

So he couldn't wait 5 minutes - even though he is always late and thinks nothing of it he chooses the day that he has no meetings and generally sod all to do to be early!
So he started shouting at how i was ungrateful for a ride.
My response to his once again childish disposition this time was *SILENCE*.
As the saying goes "Silence is golden - The Tremolos"
I had to get 2 buses which cost £4.00 when it should have cost £2.00 but i left my travelcard in my car which had gone in for service! - How bad can it get!
Well needless to say the trip was bloody LONG! - AND i was an hour late for work which was ok with my colleagues so that was a relief.
Whilst waiting for my second bus i was witness to a car accident - no one got hurt but it was a NEW Range Rover clashing with an old banger of a van as the RR wanted to switch lanes and the ass of a driver in the battered van didn't want to let him - luckily my bus came shortly after so no eyewitness statements!!!

My day has gone much better since i got into work as my colleagues crack me up - BUT lets see what work has in store for me this even in the club!

What are you all up to this weekend??? - I hope it is something more interesting than me catching up on sleep.

p.s. Seeing the other half will be interesting!

Have a good one!

xXx

2007-04-20T10:47:00.001Z

Money, Money, Money

"Money makes the world go round" - Not sure who by but so true!

"Money, Money, Money" - Hit single for ABBA

"Money is like muck, not good except it be spread" - Francis Bacon.

All of the above statements are so true and no matter what you say deep down you most probably think the same.

When it comes to money in my world it is as many say few and far between - i am in a comfortable situation with a few debts that should soon be settled and i will finally be able to hand in my notice!

Many women say the happiest day of their lives is either their wedding day or the birth of their child/children.

Well for me at the moment as i am involved in no plans to hastily do either i will say my happiest day so far apart from being born and being around my loved ones will be getting out of this job that i am currently in.

My title: Helpdesk Operator

My department: Estates & Maintenance

My location: A huge hospital which covers 2 others at the same time all from one office (aren't we hi-tech!)

My thoughts on the above:

My title: General Helpdesk Operator (Someone to shout at about problems including things because some people have no brain to figure out the simplest of things!)

My department: The bottom of the pile

My location: A landing plot for any shit bombs

So what is the general take on my situation???

I think it includes me hot stepping my ass out of here asap!

MY PLAN (Mu ha ha ha!!!)

I will hand in my notice at the end of May as i have debts to pay off and have figured out the exact amounts i can afford each month and the amount i will pay each month - this time i will stick to it as i REALLY do want to get out.

So if i hand in my notice at the end of May my last month of pay will be in June and i will have paid off debts and i will have 2 months for the summer to myself which include my 21st birthday off!!!

I will still be doing my door work which will bring in money but i will have days free to do what i wish!

So there we have it ladies and gentlemen i will be FREE!

What is your take on things?

xxS*Bxx

2007-04-16T20:56:00.000Z

Ummmm. . . . .

Hey people not really sure what this post is about as this is one of the first nights i have had at home doing nothing and had some time to myself!

So naturally i made dinner - Spaghetti & Large Meatballs
with drink - 1 bottle of Ernest Julio Gallo Rose
and then Haagen Dazz (i think that is how you spell it!) Cookies and Cream.

Doing nothing and drinking a sufficient amount really hits you hard especially when you have been working too hard to party too hard!

So people what has everyone been upto - i have been reading blogs all over but not had much time between the new and old job and helping out the new girls so my apologies go out but i thought i should appear even if not making much sense and will most probably regret this later!!!

But people hope y'all are healthy etc.

Keep in touch

xxS*Bxx

2007-04-02T09:35:00.000Z

Well ladies and gents i found this on TTD's page and i thought that it needed to be done - of course i can't put my name so my alias will have to tickle your tastebuds for now!

Take care y'all

xXxS*BxXx

2007-04-01T20:44:00.000Z

One HOT minute . . .

This part is edited! - Only the beginning bit as i forgot to put it in - Happy April Fools Day people!! - Hehehe!

Well the title of this post might have something to do with the actual post and it may not depending on how fast i become tired of typing!

So before y'all hear about what i have been getting upto in the past couple weeks let me first APOLOGIZE for not posting for such a long space of time - truth is like many have in the past thought - i thought it was writers block then i just realised that nothing interesting happened!

I would like to be able to say "Hey guys, this is all about to change but not really sure if it is!"

HOWEVER - there may be some new end of month activities going on - and no before you ask i did not get a raise or a new job (One could only hope!).
One of the bars in the village has started hosting "Single & Divorced" nights on the last Wednesday of every month - now unfortunately for all those rich entrepeneurs out there i am neither *she says with a sigh $$$* (JOKING!!!) - and again unfortunately neither are ANY of my friends can you believe this shyt - I mean the first smart thing that a bar could do to
1. Get more custom
2. Hook a sista up!
They decide to do it when i am SETTLED - Oh well - i am perfectly happy where i am for a change - i like this feeling!
Ok back to reality! - So i do actually have a friend that is single however she aint in no mood to be hooked up with some twat so thats all the hooks up possible out of the question.
So one may ask what happens now?
Well we go anyway! - Anyone asks we have a mix of answers ranging from sexually confused and in need of help to totally lost and in need of some nookie but straight!!!

Again unfortunately we missed this months fix so we are going to have to wait to the crucial month (END OF THE FINANCIAL YEAR MONTH) - This is the month that sorts the men from the boys in other words the rich from the poor.

Now i know this sounds mean and some may not agree but for the girls and myself this should be a pretty good night - we have over 3 weeks to plan our outfits and perfect the little things women do! and then when we are there as most men have done in there past milk a woman - in there case for sex in our case for drinks.

I will keep you fully informed of the goings on with this little situ when the time comes!

BUT for now- i will concentrate on my title.

When i say one hot minute i am referring to myself and the other half as in we had a hot minute and for once it didn't get totally destroyed by talking about future plans - we were actually comfortable about it and not for once because we have been comfortable before but this was REAL comfort zone!

BABIES was the main subject and then we got into talking about numbers - i initially want an even number now figure this riddle out my number is the second highest even number before double figures.

His number is a football team (English Soccer)!!!
I guess he thinks babies come out like frozen garden peas not giant potroasts?!!

It cracked me up but we finally came to an all rounded decision which is a number i will keep quiet for now but i will say it is closer to my figure than his!

That is my explanation for my title but now i have to go - not because i am bored of typing but i am talking to a friend online (you know who you are J!) and i lost my train of thought after a rather long visit to the loo (any black person should know - Cerassie!)

Well take care my lovelies and i will be back for me very soon!

xxS*Bxx

2007-03-15T10:10:00.000Z

Candle Party

Some people may think is she going crazy but no i am not!!!!

On Friday night i played host to about 20 lovely ladies for a Candle Party - yes ladies and gents you have heard it all now!

Ok so let me explain myself . . .

I am an Avon rep in my spare time (which for the past couple of weeks i haven't had much of).
I have made many plans to boom my business on the Avon side of things but somehow i always managed to get sidetracked! Not good!

So the Candle Party is kind of like an Avon party but a lady comes to your place and explains to your guests everything they need to know about different candles - there are Votives, Tealights (Everyone knows these!), Ball candles (i will tell you what i thought about these in a sec!), Pillar candles etc etc etc...

So she goes on with her hour long spiel and people listen as attentively as they can manage after 3 - 4 glasses of decent red, white and rose wine (choices ladies!).
She then starts handing out catalogues and all you can then here is the clinking of glasses hitting the floor and wallets flying open - this was quite good for me as i get a free gift if i sell over £165 i will get to my total in a minute!

So after the orders are written she then shrieks at my poor guests to "Hush!!!" - RAFFLE TIME!
Eyes down ladies and my auntie and her next door neighbour won both prizes! - Not fair but hey hey i got my free gift - out of all the orders the were placed the total was £240 - i was CHUFFED with myself for my presentation of cheesy balls and wine selection and entertainment to the children provided by my puppy!!!
Thanks to my little list above i can get a £50 free gift or voucher so i can safely say all creds to me!!

If all the above is waffle to you about what a candle party is click on this link - PartyLite.

I hope it all makes sense now - the lady that was the "Candle Expert" tried to talk me into being a consultant but my take on it was - i am struggling with my avon at the moment why load myself up like a pack horse with more!

So how have y'all been lately?

I hope good but if not keep ya head up - things will flow well

xXxS*BxXx

Added extras!!! - I did say that i was going to tell you about my take on the ball candles - well all i think is needed to be said is the expert lady told me that they come in pairs both have soft centres and one is smaller than the other!!!!!
(I almost wet myself!)

Nuff said!

xXx

2007-03-08T15:59:00.000Z

A good read. . .

So the past 4 weeks have been nothing but almost hell or extremely close to that most horrible feeling.

Firstly after a blissful 7 days without the boss at work he came back.
This was not a nice experience as things had been running extra slick and smooth and he came and smashed down all of our nicely structured walls.
What i cannot grasp is who lets this monkey manage people - the whole organisation is corrupt and the couple of people that are in the position to change it just moan about it and make things worse.

The above pretty much explains what has been going on for the first two weeks of my disappearance - rectifying problems that were all good to start with but destroyed by a tosser.
Sorry for any profanities - should have given advanced warning!

The other half has been back and forward to the countryside so we have been living the country bumpkin quiet life for a while!
It has been quite nice to just sink into the background and chill out - as he is now in the forces and i don't see him much anymore when we do spend time together things are most defintely not as hyped as they used to be- we don't have much time for fighting about petty things anymore so we just enjoy each others company - we have been seeing films, taking walks very romantic chick flick!

When he goes back for the week i tend to just put my all into reading books, catching up with old friends and cooking - i have come to realise that you cannot microwave EVERYTHING!!!
(For the record - I CAN cook!)

Right moving onto what is going on now and just recently:

Over here in the UK there was some big scandal thing that hit the papers about how banks were overcharging their customers for going over their overdraft limit and have been doing so for the past 6 years - so it is chaos over here with everyone requesting their last 6 years of statements - i am sure we have demolished a VERY large rainforest by now (no jokes)
To get the statements in question you have to pay your bank a fee upto the MAX £10 - which i think is ridiculous as it is your personal information however their resources! (swings and roundabouts)
I have yet to see the statements that i have requested and paid my £5 for so i will definitely be updating on that soon!
SCANDALOUS THIEVES!

During the past week i have been doing some serious Ebaying - it is a bit like pringles i suppose "Once you pop you just cant stop" (That might just be a UK thing not sure!)
I won (paid for) a book "Shopaholic & Baby" i have been trying to get this book by Sophie Kinsella since it came out but i refuse to pay £17.99 so i got it off Ebay in mint condition for £7.20 which i think was quite an achievement and i bagged Mario Kart 64 - great condition haven't played it yet as the console is at his place!
Come to think of it i can't even play my X-Box as it packed up last week i think from lack of use and the amount of dust it collected but Mr Tech (other half) can sort that out.

I better get back to work lookin at the time and the pile of papers in front of me.
I started this yesterday and have to do some actual work for a while so if i can make sense of all of the above i will be back later today with the rest of my psychobabble!!!

***Back with a BANG!***

xxS*Bxx

2007-02-05T20:44:00.000Z

NEW YEAR. . . NEW TINGS!!!

People always go into a New Year with the perception that it will be drastically different from the one that has just passed them by.

How things are going to be different is down to the individual. Mostly the general concensus is New Year number New Tings - HOWEVER!!!
What are you as an individual going to change to make these new things happen. Most of the population that jumps on the bandwagon of the NYNT comittee are so stuck in their ways that they are not willing to change anything so by the time July comes they start to blame family, friends and the big shit of the country the government.

I wont start to pretend that i know the smallest things about politics as i don't (Yes people i know i should - i watch the news for current affairs and i am not taking part in a degree of Law, Politics etc so i think my nose diving into current affairs is good enough).

So back to the situ in hand, to have a New Year with New Tings - YOU as an individual have to be willing to change. As i found out myself.

Yes i have jumped on a bandwagon but i think it is the good side of things as even though only 1 month has passed i have noticed positive changes in the way things are in my day to day life - work, home, love!!! etc.

My biggest problem and pet hate of my other half was my bad temper - snappy, ignorant (yes it is soooo so so so hard to admit but hey my name is .... and i am a .....!!!), carrying on with the list, rude when not needed, violent when wound up to a point that there is return.

I don't think i will continue with this list as i think you might get the general picture!!! - Ok so what was my solution to this HORRIBLE problem - and no i know what your thinking (or i think you do!)

I did NOT go to anger management classes!!!! - That was a suggestion from the other, however before we got round to signing up he signed up for the Navy and was off before i could sing the first line of "In the Navy!"

So 3 weeks past without the great love and i was bordering on upset - it is now 7 weeks and i have learnt to deal with it and don't feel the remote urge to go insane. In fact i am the total opposite - i have been calm quiet and reserved.

You know the old saying "You don't know what you have until you have lost it" - well i haven't lost him as i get to see him this weekend before he is assigned to his first duty call (exciting stuff!!!) but he is not always here and it is weird when you are used to sharing a bed with someone (even if it is not EVERY day), knowing that you are going to wake up to a sloppy kiss and a "Good morning baby" - I am waiting for next friday as i am so excited just to be able to look at him.

During my time of reflection, i have learnt that there is a life outside of my relationship and it doesn't involve being an ignorant bitch at the prospect of a little change - now i think i have done quite well - what will you learn???

All feedback is received with gratitude xXx

xxS*Bxx

2007-02-02T15:45:00.000Z

You've got to have FAITH...

"He delivereth me from mine enemies: Yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me: thou hast delivered me from the violent man." Psalm 18 Verse 48

Ok so, these past two weeks have been one of the worst in my working life so far.
It all started last week Monday when my senior manager decided that after our "informal chat" as he put it - he would make it formal by putting something on my record.
I don't mind getting a "slap on the wrist" for supposedly doing something "that is didn't do" - BUT having something put on my file is LUDICROUS - my union are now involved in the whole situation and things are just getting worse.

I know for a fact that when i come into work on Monday morning everything else will start to crumble.
I never thought this would happen but i think that i will end up being pushed out by my manager.

After i went to my doctor on that monday night i mentioned in the previous post, i took a 4 days off for stress under the conditions from the doctor that if i went back to work and things got worse then i would just get up and go and be signed off for a few weeks.

I really don't like staying at home off work as things are even worse there - work seems to be like a haven to get away from the bad things at home but when both places start to fall apart in front of you what are you supposed to do?

I am really sad to say that i REALLY do need some suggestions on how to get through this horrifying situation.

I have always been religious but lately even more so and i must just say thank the good lord for keeping me here healthy, maybe not so in my state of mind - but in everyday life and for guiding me through horrible times.

I hope you all are well and hope to hear some feedback.

Oh and the puppy is fine thanks!

Many thanks

xxS*Bxx

2007-01-20T13:22:00.000Z

Ummmm . . . .

I was just flicking through some music vids on YouTube.com and i found this:

Well when i had finished watching it not only was i in stitches but i was speechless - very hard for even me to believe!!!
I REALLY wasn't sure if he was just playing the ass but then i found some more of his "rap" vids and was even more confused see below:

You say i'm ugly! - Reh Dogg - I couldn't get it to just show so click on the link - it's MADD!!!!!!

Question: Is he takin the piss??????

OMG - if this guy is takin the piss he is doin his shyt so damn well!!!

Aside from the above people, this weekend was kinda jam packed with random things to do - but thanks to me being a bit of a scatter brain when it comes to saturday mornings i forgot half of my appointments and got my well deserved lie-in.
It felt so good.

This post has been published very late as my laptop crashed and just re-opened and it is monday!!! - POOR ME!!

Monday 22nd Jan '07

First day of the week - colleague is off sick and a whole heap of work to do.
On Friday afternoon i found out that someone had made a formal complaint that consisted of all of 4 lines on an email in LARGE font.
Apparently i am unhelpful, rude and condascending.
Basically an absolute f**kin joke. When my senior manager told me, he said that he needed to have a little chat (informal).

Monday morning comes and suddenly things have been made formal where there will be notes on my file which i am NOT happy about so i am in the process of a counter claim against not just 1 or 2 but 3 people all of which are senior management.
The short way to sort all of this out would be to step to me and tell me what i said that was offensive - which for the record was nothing (witnessed).
I went to the doctors surgery straight after work and i am not planning on going back for a while.

I will keep you updated as i will now have a bit of freetime on my hands.
I will still be up pretty early which is a shame as i have to walk the pup which isn't a shame!!!

Well i better go peoples, so have a nice night (in the UK) have a nice rest of your day (US etc!!)

Gonna luv ya n leave ya!

xxS*Bxx

p.s. Let me know if the link doesn't work!!! xXx

2007-01-15T10:02:00.000Z

And that's the way the cookie crumbles...

Friday evening went extremely slow especially as i was doing sod all.
I spent the evening pampering my pooch (and when i say that i mean my new puppy!) - we watched tv and he watched me eat - he isn't allowed human food so he got a couple of treats.
He sat with me until early morning and we both fell asleep - it felt like the sappy version of turner and hooch! - I had a chinese for dinner - highlight of a quiet evening.

As the Saturday morning weather hit me like a woman scorned - i stayed put in my bed until i absolutely had to get out "to answer the door bell" - pup was barking full blast and couldn't ignore the incescent "ding sodding dong".
It was the fam - so i was sitting in my jamas clutching my baby and waiting for them to LEAVE without hinting to hard that i wanted to go back to bed!
So after an hour of small talk - it clicked *ding ding ding ding ding* - i have to feed the dog!!!
THEY LEFT can you believe it they LEFT - classic :D

For the rest of the day i did pretty much nothing until around midday when my favourite rich uncle came round for dinner then my friend (who i think is gay) came over to customise (rip) my jeans for the night ahead (ahhh!! good times!)

By late afternoon i was ready and raring to go - the night of my friends 21st Birthday - he will be known as "Closet King" for now "CK" for short! (the one who i think is gay)
So the preparations began:

4pm - Hair in rollers
5pm - Hot bath with Lush bath products mixed (Pink water!!!)
6pm - Moisturising and choosing of an outfit
7pm - Hair out and styled (didn't turn out how i wanted it so got my hairdressers cuz to fix it up straight!)
7:30pm - Make up and finishing hair and accesory touches
7:45pm - Out the door!!!! - PARTY!

How organized am i - correct me if i am wrong blog fam but i think that was one of goals to be more organized lol!

So moving onto how the night actually went - cuzzy got to mine in time to sort out my hair as said above - then we caught a lift with the mumzy to the drop point - as soon as we got into the spot it was half jumpin - so bubblin our way to the bar we got our first LARGE round and we were on our way to drunksville.

We met up with CK around 8:45pm - he was all hyped - well drunk! as he had been in there with his peoples since around 6pm (Hi my name is CK and i am an alcoholic).

As me and the cuz has already begun as we meant to go on - we soon caught up with them but kept our heads up!!
10pm came and upstairs opened and we relocated - CK was giving it the large about how he was gonna be dancing everyone off the dancefloor - did this happen??
What do you think!! - He is not known as CK for just one reason - Hi my name is CK and my excuse for being a pussy ass is chlostrophobia - IN A CLUB!!!!

Can you believe it the queen of camp handed in his resignation for the dancefloor after 1 dance not even 10 minutes 1 DANCE!!!!!!!
After retiring he begged and begged with me to go downstairs with him and that didn't happen.
Me and the cuz were rollin' up as he staggered off not so much in the sunset like a wounded cowboy with his possy of 4 in tow.

So the night continued with me and the cuz - we ran into a couple of guys who were cool to jus drink with which is rare.

Then the shit hit the fan - some midget looking 4ft and a fag paper girl came up to me and the cuz -
"Havin a good look are we girls??" - this is the point where i lost my temper considering i was already wound up by CK as he invited me out and left me and the cuz upstairs.
My head swung round like i was in the exorcist - "Who was that (obviously playing) - OH!! It was you (lookin down!!)"
I am such a bitch sorry BITCH!
Midget replied " Don't get lippy yeah"
It had officially become a battle - " I know you ain't talking to me you fucking pint sized gypsy"
"You are looking at my man - what is your problem???"
"Oh this is your man - i didn't know - oh so so so so so sorry - did you hear the sarcasm in my voice - you did oh good as it was used for a reason - now please oh please tell me why on earth i would have a problem standing at the bar talking to a couple of decent guys?? - but then wouldn't be able to tell me about that would you as you can't talk about something interesting for more than 3 seconds i believe it is called goldfish syndrome or in your case just being thick - so now get the fuck out of my ass and get to steppin..."

Well lets just say that was the end of her!!!

I am going to step off to work for now but i am sure to be back later to let you know how the rest of the night went with my cuz and her tongue and the morning after.

Peace out

xxS*Bxx

2007-01-12T09:00:00.000Z

New Beginnings

Today is a sad day - one of my colleagues died - he may have died yesterday but as he was a contractor the company let us know today.

I used to speak to this guy everyday and you couldn't have wished for a better colleague, always aiming to please. As this subject is just at the peak of the New Year i think it is time to set some realistic goals.

I don't think it is appropriate to set resolutions that i know for a FACT that i won't keep so goals that i most likely will keep are a better solution.

I reckon it may be a weight of ones shoulders if i set a goal for each month and if i achieve more than one per month then it's all good.

So 12 goals for 2007

1. Lose Weight
2. Get back into college
3. Get new car
4. Move out (if money permits!)
5. Get out of debt
6. Don't be such a bitch
7. Socialize at least once a week

Well people so far i only have the above as i have just had a mind blank.

Any suggestions on things that could make my life better this year???

Well better go and do some work...

New Year wishes sent to all!!!

Blogger is playing up so can't put any animations on this computer - :'(

Must dash!!!

xxS&Bxx

2007-01-11T11:26:00.000Z

The BIG '07

Morning all,
At the moment i am sitting at work and listening to my colleagues moan and groan about things that quite frankly i think they should be grateful for.
Sorry to start off on such a bitchy note!

So...

HAPPY NEW YEAR BLOG FAM!!!

I hope you all welcomed the New Year in with Happiness and all that jazz!!

NEWSFLASH!!!!

I finally got a puppy he is beautiful - black labrador 10 weeks old - pictures are below - enjoy!

Just Chillin'

Are you jokin'

Tired - oh so tired!

Love ya!

Awww!!

So people's what do you think??

It is such a big responsibility but i love him to bits.

I don't really have much to say at the moment so i think i will leave you to look at my beauty and will be back soon.

xxS*Bxx

2006-12-26T13:34:00.000Z

Belated Christmas Wishes

Afternoon blog fam - i was thinking about posting yesterday but i was doing the family thing.
Anyways - i hope you all had a WONDERFUL day - at the very least eventful!

My Christmas Tale

I woke up on Christmas morning to a screaming 5 year old, SB SB SB can i open my presents now pleasssssseeee!!!!
The other halfs little sister. So cute - i love it when kids are excited about christmas that is part of the fun.

So i was dragged out of bed as she ripped all the neatly wrapped paper off her presents. I caught it on video on my phone which was great.

After all of her presents were opened - i had a bath and headed home for my family day at mine.
It started with a small bag of morning gifts like facial wash and skincare products then i made the christmas dinner - I MADE IT!

So after the dinner we sat and thankfully missed the queens speech in time for some christmas time TV and opening of normal presents.

I got:
A bag
Money
Champagne
Various other things like skincare etc.
I am really happy with my pressies as i can use all of them.

So blog fam what did you get for christmas and did you have a good day???

Take care peoples and if i don't blog before have a FANTASTIC New Year!!!

xxS*Bxx

2006-12-15T17:14:00.000Z

The Christmas Tag

Home has been the worst thing about my week but not going into that now as i am leaving out from work in a minute but saw this on T.Cas blog so had to do it xx xx xx

1. Egg nog or hot chocolate?
Egg nog - chocolate does funny things to me!!

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?
Depends on who plays your santa - but usually wrapped!

3. Colored lights or white lights on tree/house?
I really like blue lights - i think it looks really different - maybe it's just me?

4. Do you hang mistletoe?
Did last year and got quite a few laughes - see how things go this year!!!

5. When do you put up your decorations?
Around the 1st December - depending on my schedule

6. What is your favorite holiday dish (excluding dessert)?
Other half is a veg so we have nut roast but also a nice turkey - fave holiday dish is tuna casserole though - i know it isn't very christmas like but it is the ish

7. Favorite childhood holiday memory.
Being in the country with my godparents and listening for santa's bells

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa?
Went to work with my mum one day and some woman randomly came up to me (mum's work colleague) - i was writing my christmas cards for friends and she just said - you know Father Christmas isn't real - i started crying and told my mum - my mum was screaming at her for about an hour. Serves her right - i got loads of santa presents that year!!!

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve?
Nope i have some patience

10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree?
White and Silver tinsel with loads of lights

11. Snow: love it or dread it?
Love it when it happens

12. Can you ice skate?
Yeh slightly !!!

13. Do you remember your favorite gift?
My first big girls bike - so proud!

14. What’s the most important thing to you about the holidays?
Being happy with my family

15. What is your favorite holiday dessert?
Chocolate Gateau or Apple Pie

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition?
Watching Oliver Twist and all the christmas movies like Scrooge with the fam

17. What tops your tree? A BIG Star

18. Which do you prefer: giving or receiving gifts?
I love giving as i love wrapping

19. What is your favorite Christmas song?
Frosty the Snowman

20. Favorite Christmas movie?
Scrooge!! - Reminds me of my dad!!!!

Well y'all have a good weekend - will report back on how mine goes when i get back - i am off to the country.

Take care

xxS*Bxx

2006-12-06T10:11:00.000Z

The Aftermath with Reflections (as promised)

Morning blog fam, hope all is well with everyone.

Let's recap on what i said i was going to do over the weekend just gone.

1. Dutty Wine play.

2. Sparks birthday

3. Reflections

So first of all - Dutty Wine

It was absolutely fantastic - even though with the potential mother in law and the seats were far up. SOOOOO funny. Defintely going to book tickets but with better seats.

One girl got up on stage and mashed it up proper.

The girl (well not sure whether it was a he she) that was her competition was TRASH she was jumpin around like she was ravin to drum n bass - the audience including myself booed her ass off the stage.

In the process of shouting at her to get off and laughing to the point of needing the toilet i knocked my lemonade over my bag then forgot about it and put the bag on my jeans (light blue denim) - so as i walked out of the theatre it looked like a wet myself.

Not very comfortable to walk in and for some of the looks you can only imagine

Right so lets move on from my discomfort shall we...

Sparks' Birthday

From the beginning which technically would be the shopping part - i already had my top and shorts with the white shoes?!?!

I will made a quick sidenote to say over in the UK - there used to be a saying that only hookers wear white shoes or essex (an area in the UK) girls as many are sluts - but Dave Chapelle changed that theory for me as he made is CRYSTAL CLEAR that hookers wear CLEAR heels

So on the saturday morning i went over to see how the preps were going for her big night out.

She was pretty freaked as she wasn't sure what time the babysitter was turning up but that soon stopped in its tracks as i got hold of her brother and he agreed to do the night in with child thing - otherwise known as babysitting.

So we went to pick up the brat (my beautiful goddaughter!!!) from her father. Then went shopping for a belt that i am thinking of taking back as i didn't wear it and probably wont anytime in the future.

She kept saying i could shower at hers but I DON'T THINK SO - for some reason if i can avoid it i will stay away from other peoples toilets unless i can help it.

So i rushed home took time in the bathroom perfecting things as best as i could - traditional ritual of make up etc was done at Sparks (pictures will be posted when i get the cd of photos)

Packed my overnight bag which you might as well call a mini suitcase and made my way over to Sparks place - she had invited me and another friend to stay over for the night.

So we both arrived and unpacked the necessaries and all got ready for the night out carrying out the pre-going out ritual.

Changing nappies in between and feeding the brat.

So babysitter arrived then the taxi and we were away - or so we thought.

Ten minutes into our taxi ride - myself and sparks shouted out

We had to ask the driver to take us back home so we could get our ID - there is no where in central london that you go in without ID and considering it was her birthday it would be pretty annoying going all the way up there and having to come back - so that was an extra £10 on the fair which made Sparks miserable (which doesn't take much) - so we paid £11 each and there were 3 of us which wasn't too bad.

So sparks still miserable with myself and the other one walked to the bar located in soho square - the bar was nice a replica of the one by where i live - still miserable she tried to push past the bouncers - which didn't work ( to myself)

She got stopped and asked for her ID - so we all got in from the cold and rain and found our group - we got a couple of drinks and had a laugh. Only to find out from the bar staff that the spot shuts at 11pm which really doesn't help. So we head off to find somewhere else to go for the rest of the night - as soon as i stepped outside i felt like i was going to freeze - about 10 steps along someone grabbed my hand and all i heard was OH MY GOD HONEY those legs are fabolous just fabolous (the gayest of gay black men and he was FINE) why he had to be gay i don't know but i just giggled and tried to get away as my group left me with this creature. As funny as he was i just wanted to get away. Shame they didn't snap me you would have balled your eyes out.

So half the group went home and the 4 of us that were left went to Mc Donalds - Sparks ordered her usual Quarter pounder and i had an apple pie - not really into their food too much.

So we headed for the train station to get back to our territory this is where things started to go drastically wrong - throughout the night Sparks kept saying to everyone if she didn't like something they did or said - It's my birthday you can't do that - it was getting on EVERYONE'S last nerve so she said it to me on the train so i said to her that her comment was getting as old as she was.

I thought this was quite funny as did the other friend so we were laughing - Sparks got up and stomped into the next carriage - we both balled up and laughed at how pathetic she was being.

She is the kind of girl that if there are 3 and she is pissed of with one she will over emphasise talking to the other so she was talking to the other friend which gave my ears a well deserved rest.

So myself and the other one exchanged looks thinking exactly the same thing

So we ended up in Wimbledon and headed to the Watershed bar - one of her said usual haunts back in the day - never really took my fancy as i saw it as a hole. So we went in and even though an old haunt nobody knew her surprise surprise i had to pay to enter a hole. Once we were in there things just got worse i got in a fight at the bar and almost bottled some posh biatch.

So i was not pissed but pissed off.

I headed to the toilet but on my way got chatting to the only black guy in the place not all that but light entertainment was needed for such a night.

Half and hour had passed so i thought it would only be right to take my new found friend back to the group of now 3 including myself - so i took him back to the pack and did the informal intro - then ran to the toilet as by this time i was busting.

By the time i got back the new friend and the other friend were grinding which was cool and Sparks face was like thunder so i found her someone to dance with and all she did was complain so i just picked up my stuff and walked out shortly followed by the other friend.

We managed to get a quick taxi back to her place - she managed to jump in before we left her.

She was pissed when we got back to hers and complained about how even though myself and the other friend weren't talking we would wake up the brat from the noise of eating waffles.

So we went to sleep and woke up in the early hours of sunday morning got dressed and headed for starbucks.

As far as i can remember with my selective memory and all that is what happened so overall i think it was a SHYT night out - what y'all think???

I know i keep holding back on reflections but at the moment really just want to sleep so even though this post is LONNGGGGG!!! I'm finally off to my bed again.

Enjoy

sent

xxS*Bxx

2006-12-01T16:36:00.000Z

IT'S FRIDAY !!!!!

So it is finally FRIDAY - thank the lord!

I am goin to see Dutty Wine tonight on stage - which will be hilarious!!! - with the other halfs mum (not so hilarious)

Just a quick drop by to all the blog fam to say the week so far has been pretty horrible.

Many people to pay respects to - One being T.Cas and Trish's Family - Love sent from the UK.

Also yesterday i went to a funeral - my best friends Grandma - this woman was amazing - everyone knew her - very jolly Italian woman always had a smile on her face and was like a second nan to me.
It hurt so much to see my best friend and his brother crying and knowing there was nothing i could do to take away their pain.
So we all went to the service then the burial and back to the house for eats.
I don't know if it is just me but i can never eat after something like that.
I will go more into my reflections on monday morning as more time. Leaving out from work in about 10 mins (yeahhh!!!)

So Friday is here - i went shopping last night to get my outfit for sparks (known from previous posts!!! - Mr Mack!!!!) birthday - so it goes something like - white top with Diamante thingy's, short shorts (hehe!!!) and white shoes ( i have a really weird perception about white shoes but again more time on monday morning)

Will let you know how things go tonight for Dutty Wine and tomorrow for the Birthday Bash!!! On monday morning.

So blog fam

xxS*Bxx

2006-11-24T15:32:00.000Z

PART DEUX...

So the continuation of my previous.
Where did i get to . . .

Oh yeah -
So after my night of nuff nuff!! - Day 2 began.

My Auntie from the country came up to the big smoke (London) - i didn't have to drive to pick her up this time which was a good rest - i was still recovering from the night before.
I thought it was only good manners to drag myself out of the warm, comfortable bed and go back to mine and say my hello (she is like my second mum after all).
So i dragged my caboos out of bed into the bath and i must have fallen asleep in the bath as i woke up shivering because the water was so cold.
Jumped out fixed my hair, brushed my teeth and slung on a tshirt and some jeans with my signature timbs.
I was ready to go.
COLD COLD COLD.
I had to run all the way to my car which was at least half a mile down the road - don't smoke but puffing and panting like a trooper - this is a sign - EXERCISE is needed.

The rest of the day was pretty much a monotonous blah.
Shopping for my plantain, sweet potatoes, yams, casava etc. You know how we do!
Cooking for the fam and when i say fam all 10 including some of his.

Ice skating was on the agenda but didn't make it to the rink on time - so that trip was postponed until Tuesday evening when i finished work.
Still glowing about my purchases from the day before i went back to the land of nuff nuff!!!

Day 3 - Friday

Woke up around midday - warmed up yesterdays dinner - which tasted pretty good apart from the now dry rise and peas - didn't really fancy gravy in the morning. Made a soup out of the rest.
Did nothing but look on the net all day for party closes for the christmas season. - Should have come on here and done my post then - Sorry!!!

My leave from work officially over but the weekend seemed to be looking up.

On the Saturday i went to see my goddaughter and the little critter is now pulling herself up and trying to walk.
Which reminds me i have to buy her a walker - damn my pocket is BONE DRY - just got a BIG phone bill and not happy as i was told my minutes would be big for the duration of my contract but seem to have been cut so i had to pay for the excess calls what a load of bullcrap.

Oh - i saw this on Nika Laqui and it's weird how these things go global

Its the 1 Word Text thing

My results were:

Mad
Hot
Funny
Spirited
Feisty
True
Happy
Honest (i classed as the same as true???)
Loved
Appreciated

I was really happy with the replies that i got from this so bloggers if you pass by and have read - take the time to think of one word that you think would describe from what you know.

Much appreciated my lovelies

Will be back soon

xxS*Bxx

2006-11-20T13:28:00.001Z

Back to Work

So, it is now monday and i am back at work after my 5 day weekend.
Not happy - really not happy.
After taking those 5 days 3 of which should have been work days i sat back and didn't really do much.
At first i was thinking that i should use these days to do the things that i don't get to do when i am at work.
Little did i know that i really wouldn't do much if i was off work as i would be relaxing.

So day 1 - I was ready to go.
I got woken up at the earliest hours of dawn see the previous post for all details. Once up i sorted out my broken internet connection at home.
Once that was done i made breakfast with tea (peppermint and lemongrass with sugar) which was great.
After an hour of rest and relaxation to compensate for my early risings i went shopping or should i say got taken shopping. Even better.
I came home equiped with a new pair of boots and as stated in the last post (i think) a sexy green dress.
So it wasn't at all a bad morning sloping into afternoon.

Later in the evening i slouched onto the couch until 2:30am the next morning bear in mind that i was asleep for most of that time but it was great.
So that is wednesday out of the way - the next couple of days were kind of a blur.
If you remember reading that i had broken up with my significant other well somehow he is back in the picture and when i say the next couple of days were kind of a blur i think that is how we say it in the UK south london (Saff london - for the illustrious Mr Mack's benefit) "Nuff said".

Have to run off for a while to do some work - sorry peeps will continue when i have finished my monday pile of paperwork.

Thanks for stoppin' by.

xxS*Bxx

2006-11-15T19:54:00.000Z

TAKING A BREAK FROM THE REAL WORLD

So as i embarked on the first day of my 5 day weekend from work i was woken up by my mum choking on a tablet.
So me expecting to sleep through until around 10 maybe 11 as i didn't have to get up. In the midst of my early morning slumber i heard "she's choking, she's CHOKING" when there is an emergency situation my dad is never the sharpest pencil in the box.
So i can hear in the background *cough*COUGH*WRETCH*.
She was getting no help as all he was doing was flapping around like a headless chicken. So i dragged myself from my warm bed and into the bathroom where my poor mum was gasping for air.
I held her up over the side of the bath and put her head in my hand and wacked her back. The pill that she had tried to consume bounced off the wall and down the plug hole.
She could breath!!!
I was so happy that she was ok that i couldn't go back to sleep - i cooked her breakfast.
I sorted out my manked up internet connection and took her shopping in the christmas sales.

Not a bad start to the day.

One reason i say this is - my new brown knee high boots - pics of the beauties will be on the next post as the wire i need to upload is at work :-( Oh well.
I also got a sexy silk green dress alongside various other things. I am trying to prepare an outfit for my friends 21st.

However after i bought the dress she told me the theme was now sexy biatch!!!!! - What a joker!
So now i have to go back out tomorrow or the day after i get paid and buy a pair of hot pants and a tank top. I think i will go for the lara croft side of things - tight tight tight!!!

I am open to suggestions on what should be worn for this event?!?!?!?!? - Not too dirty please!!

So what to do tomorrow i wonder??

Before i go i must mention a couple of phone calls to the illustrious Robert Mack - My personal Mr America - I haven't spoken to someone so comfortably for a while and it is nice to know there is someone so down to earth and laid back at the end of the phone to make you laugh.
So Mr Mack - just so you know love ya lots hun x x x

Take care my lovelies

As always

xxS*Bxx

2006-11-09T10:30:00.000Z

AS TIME GOES BY. . .

So people, how are things??

The purpose of this post is to reflect on the past months goings ons and to update all of you lovelies of course.

Due to lack of enthusiasm to actually come on the net at work and no net at home at the moment, my blog seems to have stagnated. Hopefully i can rectify this problem - unfortunately i am not sure how effective my attempt may be!!!
So...

Last blog Friday October 6th '06
So just over a month ago i suffered from a terrible case of writers block. Along with my lack of enthusiasm to come on the net as i said before the block seems to have continued throughout the month.
There could be another root to the problem and that is that i sometimes have so much to say and have nowhere to put it so it just goes to waste.

Let me get on with things as i am already starting to bore myself . . .

Middle of October was well on its way with the COLD COLD COLD weather.
Halloween would be arriving soon and the autumn party season would begin. Well it should have done but i was to busy in bed sick! Lucky me.
On top of the bad news of not being able to make appearances at some usual haunts - i got dumped.
YES LADIES AND GENTS - I GOT SHAFTED and not in the dirty sense of the word.
After 3 years of working at a long term relationship - it all just ends in a nutshell.
It really just made me feel like i shouldn't have bothered put all the time in - but i couldn't help it as i love him and still do.
It will take a while to get over it but it will happen in time - for now my lovelies i am single and not really sure what to do with myself?!?!
Do i go out on a sex binge or do i just take things as they come?
My angle of things will probably lead to taking things as they come as i really am not in the mood to get hurt.
There are some couples around the globe that look so happy - that is how we used to be.
We used to walk down the street and people would look at us and think "They are PERFECT for each other"

OK sorry to cut of the sad story off but i don't really feel to get upset at work - so maybe when all is over a done.

On the upside of things i did my security course and i got top marks so i will soon be (when i receive my license) a bouncer.
No free entry to clubs promised lol!!
For some reason i am really pleased with myself as when i was in school i used to fail most exams miserably but this one not only did i pass but i got the highest mark in my class. Look at me all studious and all.
Joking lol.
But i am really happy for myself as i dont really have to worry about work when i go back to uni next year.

Whilst writing all of the above i am racking my brain to find something juicy to tell you but nothing really interesting has happened to me in the past month - i really need to get out more.
I just seem to work, eat, exercise (not going so well) and sleep.

Oh i must say i give a HUGE efforts and results award to (drum roll please) Mr Robert Mack.
I wish i had the same will power as you. I will keep trying and hopefully by christmas only one month away peoples i will have something to report back.

Well on this note i better get back to work and maybe just MAYBE something interesting may happen.
I think i am going out tonight so that may liven things up?!?!?!

Take care lovelies

x x x x x
Bless
x x x x x

2006-10-06T15:19:00.000Z

WRITERS BLOCK . . .

From reading Mack's blog I had writers block and didn't know what to call it so thanks for reminding me.
As it stands the only things that I really have to moan about are work things which really are not even interesting enough for me to put on the screen.
So lets track back for a history lesson - history of the venomous one. . .

This next block of words I got inspiration from the Mack again! So cred to you hun. x x x

When I was back in school I think the worst ever thing that happened to me was the school trip.
So all these kids packed and ready to go just waiting for the coach to turn up.
Wales was the destination (Some dodge part of the British Isles)
Girls on one side, boys on the other. The coach trip wasn't so bad but there is always one of the opposite sex that will definitely fancy - on a sidenote - during the younger school days I wasn't in with the 'in crowd' - back to the roll. . .

So after spending much of the coach trip staring and finally getting to talk to the fit one of the group, this trip was lookin up!
So we finally get there.
Girls are put into dormitories 6 to 8 to a dorm - it wasn't too bad as I was with my best friend but the rest as always we bitches.
We were stuck in a damp smelling bitchy dorm for 3 days. The first night wasn't so bad.

THE NEXT DAY

It all began here, the tantrums from the rich kids and the fights between the 'in crowd' and the rest.
I was someone in between all of this as I seemed to talk to everyone apart from the select one 'the big bitch'.
Every chance I got to avoid her I would, not out of fright but out of pure disgust. She was ginger to the core (not that I have a prob with ginger peeps) but she was just NASTY.
She thought she was the dogs bollocks but clearly not.

The BIG Joke . . .

Which may I add at this point I was the subject off.

When u are 11 or 12 you take things very personally especially when (men u might want to look away) - it is time to start your period.

So one night after dinner and a huge fight between me and the bitch me and the best friend went to the loo together in girlie style but stopping off in the dorm first to check on a few things.
Little did we know that the bitch and her comrades were close behind the corner.
So we finished in the toilet and she came in looking to start another chapter of our fight neither me or BF(Best Friend) were interested so we went to walk out and then it hit me. All I heard were the bitches so called friends calling up the boys to look down the toilet even though I flushed to see (men look away) red all in the loo.

I personally think it was a sick joke so in true fight club style I gave her one punch and knocked the bitch sparko then started dragging her by her hair into the toilet cubicle where she had committed her crime against me.
I slapped her in full view of now what I could safely say then my new found friends - she perked up a little and tried to fight back but I punched her again this time forcing her head to look at what she had accused me of leaving.

She was screaming for me to let her go or she would so something - I kept asking her what she was going to do to me that could be worse than me smearing her face in my so called reminiscence - considering I hadn't even come on yet and it couldn't be mine it must be her own. So I proceeded to dunk the BITCH - by the time she came up she looked like a strawberry dunked ginger BIATCH!!
GLORY was mine.

10 Years down the line I saw her walking in Wimbledon while I was out shopping with my goddaughter and she looked like she had just come out fancy dress.

On that note I think if there is a school reunion for my year I will definitely go and I will be holding a very large glass of red wine.

Peace

Thanks for stopping by

x x x x x
Bless
x x x x x

2006-09-21T11:26:00.000Z

The Return of the *** BITE *** ! ! !

Good afternoon blogworld and my apologies for being away for so long - even though i am back! I at this moment am lost for words after reading the beautiful poem i have left for you to read below.

xx Daddy's Poem xx
Her hair was up in a pony tail,

her favorite dress tied with a bow.

Today was Daddy's Day at school,

and she couldn't wait to go.

But her mommy tried to tell her,

that she probably should stay home.

Why the kids might not understand,

if she went to school alone

But she was not afraid;

she knew just what to say.

What to tell her classmates

of why he wasn't there today.

But still her mother worried,

for her to face this day alone.

And that was why once again,

she tried to keep her daughter home.

But the little girl went to school

eager to tell them all.

About a dad she never sees

a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back,

for everyone to meet.

Children squirming impatiently,

anxious in their seats.

One by one the teacher called

a student from the class.

To introduce their daddy,

as seconds slowly passed.

At last the teacher called her name,

every child turned to stare.

Each of them was searching,

for a man who wasn't there.

"Where's her daddy at?"

she heard a boy call out.

"She probably doesn't have one,"

another student dared to shout.

And from somewhere near the back,

she heard a daddy say,

"Looks like another deadbeat dad,

too busy to waste his day."

The words did not offend her,

as she smiled up at her Mom.

And looked back at her teacher,

who told her to go on.

And with hands behind her back,

slowly she began to speak.

And out from the mouth of a child,

came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here,

because he lives so far away.

But I know he wishes he could be,

since this is such a special day.

And though you cannot meet him,

I wanted you to know.

All about my daddy,

and how much he loves me so.

He loved to tell me stories

he taught me to ride my bike.

He surprised me with pink roses,

and taught me to fly a kite.

We used to share fudge sundaes,

and ice cream in a cone.

And though you cannot see him.

I'm not standing here alone.

"Cause my daddy's always with me,

even though we are apart

I know because he told me,

he'll forever be in my heart".

With that, her little hand reached up,

and lay across her chest.

Feeling her own heartbeat,

beneath her favorite dress.

And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads,

her mother stood in tears.

Proudly watching her daughter,

who was wise beyond her years.

For she stood up for the love

of a man not in her life..

Doing what was best for her,

doing what was right.

And when she dropped her hand back down,

staring straight into the crowd.

She finished with a voice so soft,

but its message clear and loud.

"I love my daddy very much,

he's my shining star.

And if he could, he'd be here,

but heaven's just too far.

You see he was a fireman

and died just this past year

When airplanes hit the towers

and taught Americans to fear.

But sometimes when I close my eyes,

it's like he never went away."

And then she closed her eyes,

and saw him there that day.

And to her mothers amazement,

she witnessed with surprise.

A room full of daddies and children,

all starting to close their eyes.

Who knows what they saw before them,

who knows what they felt inside.

Perhaps for merely a second,

they saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy,"

to the silence she called out.

And what happened next made believers,

of those once filled with doubt.

Not one in that room could explain it,

for each of their eyes had been closed.

But there on the desk beside her,

was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.

And a child was blessed, if only for a moment,

by the love of her shining star.

And given the gift of believing,

that heaven is never too far.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,

an hour to appreciate them,

a day to love them,

but then an entire life to forget them.

Take the time...to live and love!

Until eternity. God bless!

This poem touched my heart in a way that i cannot explain, it bought memories back that i chose to forget and it was hard having to deal with all of my past all over again but in a way it is good as i now feel that i can move on fully.

Thank you for reading and all of you

xxxStay Blessedxxx

2006-09-14T14:41:00.000Z

Forgetful is one thing i am NOT!!!

People, people, people!!!
I am so sorry that i haven't logged onto this thing since i blogged last which is OBVIOUS.
I have been working like a dog and trying to sort out the fam life as we do!
But as of next week i should be back in action.
Unfortunately my birthday photos will not make an appearance until the next blog.
Well in order for me to finish all of my work and get time to write a blog for next i will be off - this is a quick shout to say love to all the blog fam and i haven't forgotten u.
I know the video below is a bit late as this tragic ordeal happened the day after my birthday 5 years ago.
But i will leave you with this link and send my love.
xx I MISS YOU xx

x x x x x
Bless
x x x x x

2006-08-30T15:00:00.000Z

Birthday Post

The First Day
Well, my birthday started as a complete sham.
So it's the 24th and i wake up and plan to get ready to go to the coast - divine was supposed to be taking me for a shopping trip as they have the outlets of some major shops which i am lovin.
It gets to about 11am and i thought ok i should be shopping by now but no. I woke him up and asked him what he was doing...
His response "Trying to sleep"
I kicked the bed like a child and slammed the door and took his car to the food store. When i get pissed off i get hungry and feel the need to shop and the food store was the closest place with a bit of open road to blow out his car.
So i'm ploddin round my local in my jammy's ( yes i know this is insane but i forgot in the heat of the moment) How crazy is this though, my jammy's are so nice noone noticed haha i pulled it off!!
So i get home with his card and 4 shopping bags in hand.
He was in the shower - perfect timing. I turned on all the hot taps downstairs - yeh BIATCH feel the cold and wake ur sorry ass up.
He screamed like a tortured whale. Free willy i hear you cry. lol.
So about 12pm we are both showered and ready to go and back to being civilised to each other. We are out on the open road heading for the coasts shopping centre.
After a long butt breaking journey we arrive after 2 fights and 1 stop for kisses nothing more...
As he has friends who live there we park up and surprise surprise one of them is home. Lucky me i get to spend my birthday with him and ....
....
his friend. Whoopi doo!! - Not happy can u tell.
Anyway, so we walk into the town centre and start browsing. I browse then go back and buy and if it is not there when i go back to buy it wasn't meant to be. So by 4pm i have acquired at least 4 ok i will be honest 8 bags. I am on a shopping high, i go into a next shop and he says he wants to go somewhere else, i am like go bout ur business i am among good friends (shops and footwear) then god must have been smiling on me as he reached into his wallet and gavev me his card. My eyes must have lit up with pound signs like kakakakachingggg £££££££

These were the exact words:
"Take my card and go do the rest of ur shopping on it"
My heart was pounding and my feet were springing. By the time 7:59 came which is when the shops shut down there i needed a new pair of shoes as my feet were burning through them from walking so much and i needed a drink i had about 25 shopping bags hangin from me i felt like a well off pack horse.
U know!!
So off i trotted to find divine and i strolled right into him and friend chatting up two other girls.
Blog fam u will be so proud, i didn't schizo. I kindly asked him to hold my shopping bags whilst still clutching to his card and made my way over to the bar and ordered a 5 litre jug of the strongest cocktail and sat and looked out onto the ocean i was HAPPY. 2 minutes later he had the cheek to ask what the matter was. I told him that nothing was the matter and i just needed a drink. So without me asking any questions we went onto enjoy the night and went home.

The Next Night

Family night tonight - The table was booked for 8 but had to be changed to 7:30 - my moms has issues. So i leave 2 messages on divines cell one a text the other voice. He didn't seem to receive either which pissed me off cos i knew he was lying but moving on.
So in the morning he tells me he will be home at 7 the latest it is now 7:10 and we are ready to leave.
No sign of divine.
7:25 creeps up and we are just leaving - the place is right round the corner from my place so we leave now.
We get there still no sign ......
8:10 crawls round now i am severly pissed in both terms one on champs and the other just pissed off - so i make a fuming call investigating his whereabouts he has just reached home. I told him to walk as i took my car and there was no way i was driving home one i had already been through 1 bottle of champs and 2 its my birthday. So he hotstepped to the place and finally took his seat. The meal turned out to be better than i expected and that night i slept like a baby - this is properly due to the amount of liquor inside me!!!

The 3rd and Final day...
Independence day if u wish...
Divine did not want to indulge in another night of my rage against him being an asshole so i went solo with the girls and my some of my aged fam - cuz etc.
So we are out on the town strolling trying to find a place to settle, we find one catch a couple drinks and think of another. We get to our nights destination and it is pretty dead so we decide to fuel up whilst we can still see the bar.
Very good idea within 45 mins the place was jammed from ass to ass. I was groovin on the dancefloor and the peeps got then i went back to suppin those shots like a trooper, the more i drunk the less i felt drunk.(I'm not an alchi) It was all good - more and more people turned up and more and more drinks came in.
I have pics from the night but i need to collect and select if you know what i mean.
So i will leave you with most of my story and i hope you enjoyed.
Overall i think i had quite a well rounded birthday???
Show sum luv xxx

xxS*Bxx

2006-08-22T18:35:00.000Z

Hook, Line 'n' Sinker

Ok so before i get onto the proper blog i have to say this thursday on 24th it's ma Birthday !!!
I'm a young bud, so....

Ok people, this is from the most famous Rob Macks blog, hope y'all like...

10 "You Ever" questions about blogging.
1. You ever think about asking a blogger who has no picture if they could send you one (or a few)?
Since i started as Mr Venomous Venom was the first blog i read, i always wanted to see more than the eyes!!

2. You ever been scared or shy to leave a comment on someone's blog?
Yeh at first but it seems to have eased off. I think still sometimes wit girls blogs unless its Missy cos she's the ma.
Oh yeh and i don't know why but Mr Slish - he is a dude!!

3. Fellas, you ever think that you could be flirting with a man masquerading as a woman on blogger?
Not a fella.

4. You ever have one blogger that you have to check out no matter how busy you are?
Rob Mack and Missy - they always got somethin interestin to say and various others too many to mention and too much time doin nothin at work.

5. You ever feel bad because you can't get to everyone's blog?
At the moment at work i have not much to do once i get to tuesday, wednesday so i am always online pretty much and get to read ALOT. In the future who knows!!

6. You ever wanted someone, who goes to one person's blog, to come to yours as well without asking?
Yeh, various.

7. You ever dream about a blogger?
Not so far, i hope not as never met any of y'all!!!

8. You ever feel like delaying your next entry until you get a certain amount of comments from your latest entry?
It would be nice to get a run of comments but mine seems to be dry as (i wont finish that - leave it to ur imaginations and comments)!!!

9. You ever go to someone else's blog just to get to another blogger's page?Guilty!!!! Just done it Rob (sorry, on my home comp i ain't got the links)

10. You ever think of how long you'll be doing this?
Yeah, its weird. I suppose if i have somethin that i wanna share this is the place.

Hope y'all enjoyed!!!

xxS*Bxx

2006-08-17T09:32:00.000Z

Terrorism at its worst

Over here in the UK, the media have blown some of this terrorism stuff out of proportion. What they haven't inflamed enough are the important facts like british security and parliament are poor, sorry VERY poor.
Prime example please read below:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/4797945.stm

This article disgusts me, firstly for the pure fact that they felt that they had to mention that the guy in question was an Asian. I am wondering that by stating this fact might have made them feel better about themselves. What people seem to forget is some of britains well quite a large crowd of britains prestigious and maybe not so prestigious white men are muslims. So don't go out of your way to stop someone just because they look the part. Looks can be and are deceiving.

Moving onto another report on a terrorism scare that seems to have had an oversight:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/4796199.stm

I don't think britain put enough emphasis on the fact that people are now and have been for a while training young children to be terrorists, so terrorist or not that child could have been a potential threat to many peoples lives.
As for butter wouldn't melt, some of todays childrens are the biggest *%$?& - i wont say the word but you know what i mean - why doesn't england come to its senses and for once try and stay one step ahead of these things rather than 5 steps behind. This is the sort of time that i really wish my mum and dad did decide to live in the US.
Along with all this terrorist action normal peoples lives and rights are being pushed away from them.
Typical time at the airport flying out to the US read this article below it really makes you think what is this country coming to:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/4789593.stm

So as it states: "Passengers boarding US-bound flights and any items they are carrying, including those bought in departures, will be subjected to secondary search at the gate. No toiletries, cosmetics, drinks or liquids purchased in departures will be allowed on board, but food is allowed." - Yes i can understand after 9/11 the need for extra security.
However stating that you are not allowed to buy things in the airport and take them with you is ridiculous - allowing one set of passengers the right to buy and antagonising the passengers flying to the US is unfair, they should at least imply the rule that you can order and collect on the way back. One rule for one and another for someone else - it shouldn't be allowed. But hey it has been going on for a while -
Terrorists - Welcome to the UK.
British citizens - Fuck off!

I don't know?
Any opinions - oh and sorry if i went on a bit.
xxS*Bxx

2006-08-16T20:45:00.000Z

Music Makers vs No Rhythm

Ok so sorry for this nonsense blog that is about to follow but i am on a mates comp with nothin to do.
Music makers are the brothers that have it all well most of it and the ones with almost none or just totally no rhythm are the ones that you will always like and probably end up with but seem to only be there for the security issue. I don't know how to explain it...
Maybe you guys can help... Hit me back with that one.
In the past i seem to have always ended up with the brother from another mother the one with no rhythm whatever you wanna call it, and for most of the time with a couple of these guys i would see the music makers and see the greener grass but then step back like, OK if i go there things might go wrong.
I suppose it is the bad boys vs good boys again. Good guys always end up gettin hurt for the guys that will hurt the girl that leaves them.
WHY???
Why can't it just be black and white. BLACK and WHITE.
Slidin over to another side of another story (i did say this may be a bit random)
I know everyone has their preferences but what are they, mine is a red boy or darker.
Never been with a white guy, its weird cos when i tell people this they look at me like but don't you think you are missing out. I don't know.
Once again peeps i am callin on you for help, get ur peeps to help.
Opinions please.

This was one crazy ass blog. Sorry. I hope it made sense.

I'm off.

Bit off a rank colour don't you think?!? xxx

xxS*Bxx

2006-08-16T13:55:00.000Z

When you *bite* off more than you can chew!!!

It's a tough world for guys really. Well not all the time considering what women go through childbirth etc.
Women are very big teasers - don't hate girlies cos you know you are.
But on the note of continuation from friday nights events.
Yes mack he got a *snake*bite*.
This part is xrated (a little - so little ones cover your eyes)
He would have like to have gotten licked
and not .
People it might have been heaven.
Sorry for all the pics people this is a bit of a babbling blog as i am in a HYPER mood.
Back to business...
Friday night consisted of lets backtrack...
Around 8pm i started babysitting, by the time green got there i was the spitting image of THE domestic goddess. I was so bored i had cleaned out all the cupboards and done all the washing up. How proud are you guys of me.

The above are meant to be gold stars...
Anyway, around about 11:30 after checking on babygirl every half hour Green decided to turn up. The place was spotless and so was i. We sat and twiddled our thumbs and then it was "Down to business..."
I just looked at him and i knew what was comin, he got down on his knees and ...

People if you can think of an ending to this tense blog then please comment and i will reveal all.

xxS*Bxx

2006-08-14T15:36:00.000Z

Monday morning blues

It is only monday and i am wishing it was friday ALREADY!
I am sure that it is not only me that feels this way when at work on this awful day that is called Monday.
Every monday morning i get into work at usual time around 8:30, now that i am off the coffee in the mornings and tea in the afternoon (unless it is herbal) the morning vibe aint jumping like it used to.
Paperwork, piled high, i start up my snow plow and half of it makes it way to timbucktu (my offices shredder).
As i mull through many papers that i wish weren't there, i think back to my illustrious weekend.
Friday night - babysitting - with guests
Saturday - Several birthday parties
Sunday - All day SLEEPING (well deserved - I think so)
Ok so not as extravagant as one would like but it kept me busy as you can see from sundays report.
Friday night was however the most enjoyable - It all started around 8ish, sparks who you might have heard of from previous blog absolutely mortified was going out with some friends which i really wasn't in the mood to see so i agreed to look after baby girl (my god daughter). She was out of the house by 8:15 sharpish heading to her friday night destination. She said that i could have friends over and eat all her food. I didn't eat but i had a friend, this friend for future reference shall be known as the green eyed monster, green for short- many reasons for this name which i might go into later.
So after green finished with his prior engagements he came over to sit with me until sparks got back. I made coffee as the dutiful hostess should (no i didn't drink any i had herbal tea instead)
After the formalities were over we moved onto his first, my third movie of the night. When said movie (that i made sure we had both seen so nothing was missed) was half way through, he made an announcment.
"Down to business"
I was like - WTF!
Ok before we go any further the reasons for the name green is because of
1. His irresistable eyes
2. His lack of willpower to give up the stuff

As i have to go home i will carry on tomorrow.

xxS*Bxx

2006-08-11T12:54:00.001Z

Work with what you have and love the one that loves you...

Well my take on this phrase is that if you have something and have had this certain something for a while don't just discount it because of boredom.
Like they say the biggest thing will come in the smallest package, i think it is trying to say appreciate what you have for what it is and don't let your expectations exceed reality.

Infatuation is the thing that gets me.

I have been in love and when i say love i mean deep in love, i would have died for that person and there are still some feelings there.
But when you are infatuated with someone and it feels like love what is stopping it from turning into love???
Help me out people, as i really would like to know experiences and views...
Oh and remember 24th August it is my b/day. There hopefully will be a juicy report on that. Turns out all my plans cover about 3 weeks.

You know you want to!!!

2006-08-09T17:06:00.000Z

Work with what you have and love the one that loves you...

Does that make sense?

My auntie told me this when she emailed me about the Divine.

It puzzled me for a while but then i finally got it.

xxS*Bxx

2006-08-01T11:20:00.000Z

At work and bored...

Can you believe that there is actually a site at work and bored, when you are bored at work and feel like playing some games or getting a tarot reading etc, there is loads of stuff on there also there is a panic button, which made me laugh as it only really works if you work in admin otherwise your boss would look at it and ask you why you are looking at a spreadsheet. Bit stupid really. Lol!!

There are so many sites for admin workers like myself (does get boring sometimes) i have made a small list below:
boreme.com - games, vid clips
atworkandbored - games, horoscopes, tarot readings and the all important PANIC!! button.
metacafe - loads of games and funny vid clips
badtree - this site is so funny, all chappelle shows, loads of family guy stuff (stewies plane ride is too funny!!)
I am sure there are many others but i can't really be bothered to list them. (Sorry peeps - google should have a list tho..)

Ok, so far this particular blog has been really random, so to add to the randomness i have included some of the funniest carebears you have ever seen...

ENJOY!!!

It's a kinky carebear!
My personal fave!!
Another firm fave - 'it's a kinda magic' that just has to be done!
This bear is a catch!
I don't know what you heard about him - cos he is a P.I.M.P! (Sorry, i know it's corny but it had to be said)

Last but most definitely not least...
He's bad for you in every way...
It's the real KILLER bear!!!
So ladies and gents, that is my carebear show for now.
...
...
How was it for you!?!

2006-07-24T13:05:00.000Z

Tagged like a criminal

Two Names You Go By:
1. Faye
2. xxS*Bxx (For the purpose of bloggin')

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. A navy and pale pink polo t shirt
2.Pale pink timbs with Jack D socks

Two Things You Would Want in a Relationship:
1. Love
1b. Trust
2. Affection
2b. Sex
2c. Friendship (an advantage)

Two Things You Want Really Badly At This Moment:
1. Money to sort out my debt so i can move
2. My new ride (Look how pretty it is) (That is not the exact one!! I wish!!!)

Two of Your Favorite Hobbies:
1. Horse riding
2. Shopping

Two pets you have had:
1. A tabby cat with white paws called paddy (one of my neighbours drowned him when i was 10 - very sad)
2. My pure black cat with green eyes - Sooty - She is beautiful

Two people who will fill this out:
1. Hopefully, msnhim
2. Whoever see's it and wants it

Two things you did last night :
1. Slept
2. Cooked dinner

Two Favorite Places to eat:
1. China Garden (Local restaurant)
2. La Movida - Spanish tapas bar - Also local

Two things you ate today:
1. Crackerbread with Phili
2. 6 Frozen Cup drinks - (i have to go back to JA - its all about the bag juice)

Two people you Last Talked To:
1. My mum
2. My best friend - Sparks as known in previous story AB$OLUTELY MORTIFIED

Hope y'all enjoyed the read!

peace

xxS*Bxx

2006-07-20T15:45:00.000Z

Having a bad day...

What constitutes having a bad day???

Unnecessary arguments, the heat, women in heat (if you know what i mean...), men being idiots, bad traffic, loads of work and the general feeling you would rather be somewhere else.

What digs you out of this heap of minor depression???

Games online, sweeties, not doing work and laughing in the bosses face for getting away with it and the best one of all HOMETIME (especially when the sun is still shining and the air is still warm).
I sound like a little kid again!!!! Hometime!!!

So last night was an ok night but talking to family about things that i wont discuss as they are TOO personal.. really made me loose my rag.
And then i saw red!!! - The roof almost caved in from the screaming and shouting - looking back it was a pathetic argument on mostly the family side. And that is REALLY me not being biased.

So, to make it worse i have to come into work. And i forgot, my colleague is taking half day so i have to sit in a room with fickle features all day (the boss). It was the scenario where they say silence is golden. Then the phone starting ringing and my head starting banging.

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One phone call after another...
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Lunch-time - some kind of relief at least. I have the normal, a sandwich and a bottle of water, diets really need to be reassessed.
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End of the day is finally here and i am free to go home, so i will leave you with some more pics of my work so you know where i sit and get headaches and most importantly blog!!!
The first picture will be of me looking happy cos i am leavin...
Sorry about the really uninteresting, nonsense blog!! I am temporarily ashamed!

Terrible picture, it looks like i have been dragged backwards from a hedge and like a caveman don't know what a comb and softbrush is!! I apologize! (End of an agonising day - my excuse is poor)

Proudly displaying my addiction to a white choc toblerone!!

Well people i must love you and leave you as it is the weekend and i am GOING HOME!!!
Peace

xxS*Bxx

2006-07-18T11:37:00.000Z

I'm Alive, Alive, ALIVE!!!

Well as you can guess, i survived my interview with the vampire.
So the story goes...

I get home from work, washed off the daily grime. And got ready to go.
I went in fear and asked my next door neighbour (who is 13, easy bate) to come with me. And for more support another friend who shall be known as the banker from now on came with me.
So of we go to see dracula's wife. We drive down the street and BAM!! - The red roses are spotted from the end of the road - Blood red roses. To line and coffin as my 13 year old next door neighbour so wrongly put given the situation.
A young later with a nice tan answered the door and i asked if vamp was in, she showed me into the front room and she was sitting there.

Larger than life, wrapped in a bath towel she beamed at me and was nothing like what she had described. I was picturing an albino who was pale skinny and clad in black rags. But no she was great. I think i will still take the neighbour round for moral support and also incase she really is and just hasn't turned yet. She was getting ready to go out so i guess she just doesn't like sunlight. I suceeded on getting a £90 order and some possible future contacts.

So all i can say is I'm Alive, Alive, ALIVE.

2006-07-17T13:47:00.000Z

Vamped Up...

Not many people know but i am an Avon Girl. I know to many people, avon people are usually old, but i aint. Anyway moving swiftly on ...
I got a call from the company on friday afternoon to tell me they had a new customer for me around my area, i was cool about it and took her details and gave her a call. It went straight to voicemail so i left my details and convienient times for her to call me back. So, i went about my weekend as usual and it turned out to be better than usual until i got a call.
From dracula, the new customer will be referred to as dracula until i find evidence that she is not.
First of all, when i missed her call and called her back, when her phone was ringing (you can get a song to play over the ring and she has one it is draculas organ song and it is CREEPY. She then tells me that she needs products that are very light on the skin as she has very pale white skin, is not allowed to go out in sunlight and she works through the night and has her own business.
How weird is this??
Is it just me or is it really CREEPY? I would like a majority vote as it is some weird shit!
I am going to cry into my pillow now at the prospect of being eaten!!!

xxS*Bxx

2006-07-14T10:38:00.000Z

Vacation,Vacation, Vacation... continued

I like this picture above as i was wearing my fave bikini - only prob is i need to get rid of some spare tyres if you know what i mean ! - However i hope the sunset background is a good distraction.

I love taking pictures of sunsets and every night while i was over there i tried to get a picture of a beautiful sunset from different place - Ocho Rios was one place i tried but it just wasn't right. The picture above is taken whilst i was sipping a strawberry and appleton rum daquiri in Montego Bay Margharitaville. I fell in love with that place.

All of the above pictures were taken from the Margharitaville.

All the pictures that i have put into this blog and the one before vacation vacation vacation are my fave photos from my holiday album.
I was so excited about going to JA and when i got there i didn't want to come home, but i will be back.

Hope you all enjoyed my pics.

Peace

xxS*Bxx

2006-07-14T09:59:00.000Z

Vacation,Vacation,Vacation...

My vacation to Jamaica...

The photos are a bit late but better late than never?!

So...

Dunn's River Fall's - at the top after i climbed the 900 and something feet! (Really i did climb it)

See... there is me in my climbing shoes, it is the worst picture i had taken on this holiday - everytime i moved in the water stones gathered - YUK!

Above is beside the martha brae river - one of the shops. They sell some bangin crafts.

This was one of my fave shops on the side of the river - the drinks stand! - Good times, good times!!!

David - He was my raft captain come river guide - Funny guy!

These are only some of the photos i will post the rest in the next bit...

JA is the place to be !!

2006-07-13T14:52:00.000Z

Questions and Answers...

One of my good friends just asked me - Why is it when you like someone, you don't know what to say to them or you just get too embarassed???

I would put it down to the fact that because you like this person so much, you don't want to fuck things up.
It really depends how you do feel about the person in question though???
I will have to do some serious thinking about a long enough answer for this to make a proper explanation...

All shall be revealed...
Or should it be to be continued...

peace

xxS*Bxx

2006-07-11T08:35:00.000Z

REDEMPTION...

Sorry for spelling mistakes in advance again as in a bit of a rush...
enjoy...

So, it is now tuesday morning and i am at work still with the public mortification in mind, but slowly moving out of my hangover state of mind.
I got a call from divine yesterday at about 2pm, he told me to make sure i was home on time last night that he will be at my place. My brain went into overdrive...
Oooohhh, has he planned something romantic???
Is he going to take me out somewhere nice???
Will he clean up the house and make a romantic dinner and meet me in his boxers??? Sorry bout that one - partly off on a tangent the other part is true... Which one is which shall remain MY BUSINESS.
So i am gearing myself up for this wild night of pleasure and fantasies. Finally the working day comes to an end, i drive home at break neck speed to unveil my surprise...
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I turn the key in the door and my face just
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No jokes, he was lying on the couch watching TV. Me still thinking alright the kitchen must be clean and the bathroom spotless. So i walk around to inspect and NOTHING, yes people NOTHING was done.
By the time i was out of the shower padding around my room trying to find some clothes, i was fuming. Sod the clothes, i stormed downstairs in my towel hair soaked.
Me: So when you rang me earlier to make sure i got home on time, what was that for? So i could clean up after your filthy ass???
Face bright pink with fury i was thinking about hitting him with the towel but no as that would leave me naked and cold. And this just wasn't the time for bare flesh. He just looked at me and said : What?!?!?!
I did a double take, went upstairs got dressed, scrubbed the bathroom, the kithcen and the living room floor, had another shower got properly dressed and as i was about to step out the front door, he grabbed me by the stomach turned me round in one swift move and tried to kiss me. I a swifter move i moved away leaving him kissing the back of my neck and i was gone, out of the door, vamous, abracadabra, poof, i was out of there. I drove over to sparks house and stayed there making baby food from root veg until about 11pm. By the time i got home, not only was i knackered but so was my phone from the 24 missed calls 3 voicemails and 7 text messages it had waiting. PATHETIC, absolutely pathetic. You piss someone off, when they leave you in the house and still come back to it looking like a shittip no amount of voicemails will excuse from the silent treatment for a long while.
When i got home, the lights were out candles were lit all the way up the stairs!!!!
I didn't get too excited, over the high risk fire hazard that i used to call my house, so i followed the candles blowing them out and turning lights on in their place until i got to my bedroom.
Where lights remained off - he took the bulb out - He knows me too well.
This could be good or bad. So i go into the room and he is lying there barely lit by candles and barely dressed by clothes. You can only guess what happened next, if you can't use your imaginations but people again keep it clean. It was good.
However i do have a query, as there was so much tension in the air before all of that happened, is it natural after the deed is done to keep fighting.
Any comments are welcome to help me sort out my probs.

Peace

xxS*Bxx

2006-07-10T16:00:00.000Z

Note to all - linked to the previous blog.
I REALLY am not that kind of girl anymore.

Peace
xxS*Bxx

2006-07-10T13:35:00.000Z

***AB$OLUTELY***MORIFIED***

Sorry in advance for any bad spelling etc...

Well it was friday afternoon that all was good and everything was in the process on me and my friend who will be known as sparks having a night in with a dvd and a bottle of wine (and her baby daughter - my goddaughter). So we are walking into town to get a couple of bits for dinner and drinks and we walked past one of our fave haunts and the smell of the alcohol just made us look at each other and wonder. Well they do say great minds think alike, both at the same time we looked at each other and said we are going out tonight. Oh what a tangled web we both weave. We didn't think so until later that night which i will soon get to.
So sparks rings her brother and asks or should i say more to the point tells him he is babysitting. So i go home bathe and get dressed, nothing too casual - nothing too dressy. 1 Hour later we are walking to the Terrace bar (wimbledon) on a mission to get tipsy. So we order our cocktails and sit and chat for a little while. As far as cute guys go so far the night was looking DRY as a nun's you know what!

So we decided to move on - now it was between Suburban (an indie/oldie music bar with over priced drinks and not enough in one measure) and the other bar Edwards (hip-hop, r'n'b, dance all my kind of music, oh and nice guys). Our night was to consist of drinking and surveying the talent these days however both of us could look and neither of us could touch. :(. Oh well.
So we chose Edwards over Suburban - not a very difficult choice between the two but it is nice to keep ones options open.
Anyway...

So we are walking around and we spot a couple of heads that are familiar and in true girl on a mission style ignore them. (It is not bitchy!!!) So we are scanning the room and we find a resting spot. We purch for about 10 minutes. Across from me was who we called Thierry Henry - he was fit and his smile said Va Va Voom and so did his body. So i ventured over to his royal fitness and said hello there in so many more words than that. By the time i reached over there i was tipsy but for the record not totally drunk. YET!

So whilst i am gabbing i fail to realise sparks seems to be in need of rescue from some weird guy with 50 cent on his t shirt. So i excuse myself from the talent and go to her rescue, little did i know that both of our pasts were just about to bite us in the ass.
Little sidenote about mine and sparks past: When we were younger we were inseparable, best friends to the end. We were party girls and there is more that will make sense just keep reading but keep in your heads the phrase inseparable for the next paragraph or so.
As i walked over he asked sparks, is she was feeling left out and if so why didn't she come and join me and the cute one?
She said that she was ok just sitting having a fag.

So he asked her for a fag and smoothly mentioned.
50 cent:So are you two close? - referring to me and sparks.
Sparks: Yeah we are best friends and have been for many years.
By this time i thought oh she is ok just having a chat so i went back to HR Fitness.
50 then said to her: What i actually meant to say is if you are close why don't you go and join them?
Sparks: In what context are you talking???
50 Cent: Why don't you go and JOIN them all 3 of you?
Sparks face at that point went pale and she said : I am not that kind of girl?
(Did she forget that we were party girls??!!)
50 Cents face lit up with excitement for some reason so she asked why he was smiling?
He replied: You are'nt that kind of girl really? That is funny cos i fucked both of you i would say about 2 years back after we all got hammered at that club (which will remain nameless)
Sparks face then went a whiter shade than pure white and she just padded over to me and said that we needed to leave.
I asked what was wrong and who had upset her as i myself really didn't want to leave the oh so fit one.

So once again i excused myself and we scampered to the toilet and she enlightened me on the conv she just had with that bitch we call 50.
I was ABSOLUTELY MORTIFIED...
How the hell after all those years can he remember THAT...
The worst part of it was when he said, ' I don't forget the women that i fuck'
What a weed, obviously he is not getting enough sex to forget the odd person or both of us were too good to forget. But either way i didn't want to take this conv as any type of compliment. It was just HORRIBLE. So our solution once out of the toilet for this public mortification was drink. By the end of the night we had gone through the entire cocktail list on the bar and some.
In the morning i woke up on the sofa and she was making tea, we both looked at each other and like i said before great minds think alike we both just burst out laughing at our BIGGEST mistake.
Hope y'all enjoyed my weekend event more than i did.
xx
Peace
xxx
xxS*Bxx
Comments are welcome
xxx

2006-07-07T12:37:00.000Z

Piece of Ass

Sorry in advance for not spell checking if i did i would have forgotten half of the contents...

So i go home at 5 yesterday, thinking about this hot piece of ass that i saw around the office. At least i can look forward to something in work on a friday apart from going home. So lets start from the very beginning of my TERRIBLE morning. I wake up at 7:00 am and decide, i am NOT getting out of bed yet. So i go back to bed and i wake up 15 minutes later to realise i should have been up and in the shower by 6:45am. I was BLOWING my top (so to speak). So i got in the shower at 7:18am and was out by 7:25am, that sounds so nasty, but i made sure i was lathered with soap head to toe don't worry i aint a stinker. Lol.

Moving on to the rest of my morning of madness. So i get dressed in a record time of 2mins and 30 secs put a couple more shirts in my bag, various colours as i got dressed in the dark, all shirts selected went with my jeans and flip flops so not all was lost and i shipped myself out of the door and piled into the car. Started the car with what looked like a vengance, put it into gear and screached down my 20 mph road at 40 mph. No i don't need any lectures on speeding thanks there were no little children, old people, animals or other pedestrians so i was home free. So i am in wimbledon driving through at break neck speed with the tunes blaring out then i think, why am i rushing, i have to be in by 9 so i slow down and the instant i do, there is a HUGE and i mean HUGE traffic jam. Nicht Git (Not good) So i swing round and speed (again) and get into work again in record time at 8:15am. Brilliant timing a 45min drive in 30 - 35 mins. I think it may make the guiness book of records ladies and gentlemen. Sorry again to digress...

So i get into work and about 10 minutes later hot stuff decides to come in and look at the office comps as i emailed him as a ploy to get him into the office to assess the ass. And when he came in i made a full valuation, my conclusion ladies and gentlemen is i want that piece of ass. I know this is hard for some people to understand a woman saying this about a man and not vica versa but i want that ass. Lol, moving swiftly on. Ok so people hopefully you are keeping up, i am not sure i am but i will try and fill you lot in on the situation between me and the divine(previous blogs). We are now separated but his habitat is still with me as his ass needs to find somewhere to live. So now that is cleared up lets get back to hot stuff and my beetroot face.

So i'm in the office with hot stuff and i can't stop staring at his behind, it is like two ripe mangoes that i WANT to squeeze but cant reach. So my dilemma continues, but by the time i realise that i want to say something he has gone. This man seems to be the hardest man to get into contact with and even when you use the wonderful art of email he answers you about 5 million years later.

So here is the dilemma people:
There is one hot piece of ass that i want some of, how the hell do i get it??
Now i am open to any suggestions ruling out rape and other disgusting things that could put me in a mental institute or quite possibly arrested.
HELP!!!

Peace

xxS*Bxx

2006-07-07T09:24:00.000Z

To Fake or Not to Fake??? Is that really the question...

So, at work and thinking about the days gone by. Daydreaming i believe its called. So as i am sitting minding my own business, the flashbacks start. It all started when i got home from work, the usual routine is get in, go upstairs get undressed and either have a good scrub in the shower to wash the daily grime off or soak in the bath and scrub in a nice cool shower after. So i was on my way to the shower, all flesh bared and he grabbed me (divine) and pulled me into the bed with him, he is a nocturnal creature. Works in the night and sleeps by day. I went through my period of being nocturnal working in a nightclub and staying up until ungodly hours in the morning watching recorded programmes then sleeping mostly on the couch but not being donned a couch potato, but i digress. So all flesh bared, dragged into the bed and spoken to in a manner that is only suitable once drunk, which i most certainly was not. I never knew there were so many words for the poonani as it were (as i am so innocent and all!!!!!)
So he is well into this chat chat chatting and i was all in the favour for just do it and shut the fuck up. I am not going to cuss the man out cos he did the job ok but for some reason it wasn't happening for me, it just WASN'T HAPPENING. Why now? Why me! I had to claim i was about to pee myself run into the toilet and i put my head in a towel and burst out laughing.
So this is where the i beg the question to go back and fake or not????
What do i do peeps.
After this a totally different dilemma for you to read and give advice comments etc.

peace
(sorry didn't spell check)
xxSBxx

2006-07-02T18:48:00.000Z

HOT HOT HOT

So i wake up at 9am on a sunday feeling refreshed from my night of a drunken status, also known as my jackass night.
First things first, i need to get my brown ass in the shower, is it hot today or is it HOT.
By 10:15am i am primed and ready to go. Food shopping. Not the most exhilerating thing on a sunday morning but nobody will be out. So i thought. The world and his wife were in the supermarket checkouts with the most cases of beer i have seen in a LONG time. So as i totter round getting my bits and pieces, i'm thinking did i just come out in a heatwave???
Sunday morning for me isn't really my best of times, it takes me until at least midday to make sense out of why i am up and out of the house. So i carry on wondering around, picking up everything i need, pasta, vegetables, fruits, then i get to the back of the shop, wine. I am ashamed to say i spent £140 on alcohol, but in my defence it is only because i had family coming over for a sunday lunch. 40% of said alcohol will go to family and 60% to friends and myself. So i come out with my many bags and a full trolley. Drive home to sit in the garden and to my delight all two of my sun lounges are piled with bird shit. It is really not my day, so i proceed to the kitchen. The divine had done it all. I was a happy woman until i saw the kitchen sink. But that was a small price to pay for everything being cooked. So i got on with it. We sat, we ate and we drank. And the even sun is hotter than ever. I love it, i miss JA. For now i must leave you with this question, why do people complain, oh it is too hot, oh it is too cold. Are they just complaining for the sake of complaining???
I think so...
For now i am going back to the sun and the garden and will report back with something hopefully a bit more interesting.!!!

As weekends go mine hasn't been to bad apart from the jackass night so i hope everyone else had a good one.
xxxSBxx

2006-07-01T21:06:00.000Z

...Continued

My choice ...
The divine one of course, as i realised that the grass may seem greener and the gold may be gleaming, things change as people do and i don't want to be around when ice changes. His heart is not in the right place for me. As i said previously in 'From the beginning', unconditional love can only be given when you don't know someone inside out and to be honest i am prepared to give up that to be with someone who loves me as close to the unconditional point as i can get. Someone who i am sure will not someone who i think might.
So peeps the divine is the one that owns my heart and i am hoping that is the way it will stay as i have his in a tight grasp too.
So now i have made my choice and my heart is at rest, i can tell you what a complete jackass i made of myself last night.
So 10pm comes and i am ready with my bag to go and stay and m's house he called me to say that he had the wine in and all that was needed was me.
Me and M go back far from college days. So everything is strictly platonic with us...
So i get there around 10pm and music is on and the wine is flowing (down my throat) we are chatting away and suddenly i just went into quiet mode and started to think about how much i love the divine but i want ice. So to get myself out of this miserable state of mind M suggests we drink, half way through our drinking sess, i collapse on the floor in giggles and sit back by the chair. I was DRUNK. Now i am the sort of gyal who knows her limits and is never usually sick when under the influence and M knows this so he keeps the wine coming.
My embarassment suddenly approached i pelted into the toilet and from then on lets just say the toilet was my best friend for the best part of 45 minutes.
I felt like a jackass. I stumbled home this morning feeling like shit went to bed and when i woke up it was like the spanish inquisition in my own head. Why why why was i sick??? What an ass. I should have eaten before starting but hey thankfully it is all over.
Hope y'all had a better night than me
xxx

2006-07-01T15:11:00.000Z

Venomous

So saturday afternoon i wake up from my drunk night at a friends and my heart doesn't feel like i am torn anymore. Last night i made my choice.
xxx

2006-06-30T20:31:00.000Z

So here is to new beginnings...

But things seem to stay the same is certain situations.

Love, why can't my life as far as this subject goes be simple.

I am with someone who i love but i want someone who i love even more. This is a crazy situation. The worst thing about it is i want to leave the one i am with but i don't know if i will have what i have with the one i am with. My heart is telling me two things and it is hurting. Whatever most are thinking this is not an infatuation. I am going to get drunk...
The story will continue when i return to a sober state. Monday morning perhaps...
xxx