| Monday, February 05, 2007 |
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NEW YEAR. . . NEW TINGS!!!
People always go into a New Year with the perception that it will be drastically different from the one that has just passed them by.
How things are going to be different is down to the individual. Mostly the general concensus is New Year number New Tings - HOWEVER!!!
What are you as an individual going to change to make these new things happen. Most of the population that jumps on the bandwagon of the NYNT comittee are so stuck in their ways that they are not willing to change anything so by the time July comes they start to blame family, friends and the big shit of the country the government.
I wont start to pretend that i know the smallest things about politics as i don't (Yes people i know i should - i watch the news for current affairs and i am not taking part in a degree of Law, Politics etc so i think my nose diving into current affairs is good enough).
So back to the situ in hand, to have a New Year with New Tings - YOU as an individual have to be willing to change. As i found out myself.
Yes i have jumped on a bandwagon but i think it is the good side of things as even though only 1 month has passed i have noticed positive changes in the way things are in my day to day life - work, home, love!!! etc.
My biggest problem and pet hate of my other half was my bad temper - snappy, ignorant (yes it is soooo so so so hard to admit but hey my name is .... and i am a .....!!!), carrying on with the list, rude when not needed, violent when wound up to a point that there is return.
I don't think i will continue with this list as i think you might get the general picture!!! - Ok so what was my solution to this HORRIBLE problem - and no i know what your thinking (or i think you do!)
I did NOT go to anger management classes!!!! - That was a suggestion from the other, however before we got round to signing up he signed up for the Navy and was off before i could sing the first line of "In the Navy!"
So 3 weeks past without the great love and i was bordering on upset - it is now 7 weeks and i have learnt to deal with it and don't feel the remote urge to go insane. In fact i am the total opposite - i have been calm quiet and reserved.
You know the old saying "You don't know what you have until you have lost it" - well i haven't lost him as i get to see him this weekend before he is assigned to his first duty call (exciting stuff!!!) but he is not always here and it is weird when you are used to sharing a bed with someone (even if it is not EVERY day), knowing that you are going to wake up to a sloppy kiss and a "Good morning baby" - I am waiting for next friday as i am so excited just to be able to look at him.
During my time of reflection, i have learnt that there is a life outside of my relationship and it doesn't involve being an ignorant bitch at the prospect of a little change - now i think i have done quite well - what will you learn???
All feedback is received with gratitude xXx
xxS*Bxx |
posted by a Princess @ Heart @ Monday, February 05, 2007  |
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| Friday, February 02, 2007 |
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You've got to have FAITH...
"He delivereth me from mine enemies: Yea, thou liftest me up above those that rise up against me: thou hast delivered me from the violent man." Psalm 18 Verse 48
Ok so, these past two weeks have been one of the worst in my working life so far.
It all started last week Monday when my senior manager decided that after our "informal chat" as he put it - he would make it formal by putting something on my record.
I don't mind getting a "slap on the wrist" for supposedly doing something "that is didn't do" - BUT having something put on my file is LUDICROUS - my union are now involved in the whole situation and things are just getting worse.
I know for a fact that when i come into work on Monday morning everything else will start to crumble.
I never thought this would happen but i think that i will end up being pushed out by my manager.
After i went to my doctor on that monday night i mentioned in the previous post, i took a 4 days off for stress under the conditions from the doctor that if i went back to work and things got worse then i would just get up and go and be signed off for a few weeks.
I really don't like staying at home off work as things are even worse there - work seems to be like a haven to get away from the bad things at home but when both places start to fall apart in front of you what are you supposed to do?
I am really sad to say that i REALLY do need some suggestions on how to get through this horrifying situation.
I have always been religious but lately even more so and i must just say thank the good lord for keeping me here healthy, maybe not so in my state of mind - but in everyday life and for guiding me through horrible times.
I hope you all are well and hope to hear some feedback.
Oh and the puppy is fine thanks!
Many thanks
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| posted by a Princess @ Heart @ Friday, February 02, 2007 |
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